Today, i will be finishing my taxes. Well, finishing the necessary forms to file them that is. This is the latest I've been in a long time. I was thinking the week had been a dismal failure, and then i remembered about the goals i set. i thought that was a week ago, but it … Continue reading Check-in April 17
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Change?
I I got a message on fetlife, on another profile i used to have, from someone who says he's a Dom and wants to chat. He's married, his wife is not into BDSM. I'm curious. I don't think anything will "come of it," but nice to make a new friend. i am debating whether or … Continue reading Change?
Yesterday
Yesterday, i paid a few dollars to spend 45 minutes in a quiet place, looking at fake stars on the ceiling, listening to piped in New Age music. Reclining in a comfy chair, tucked in with a blanket over me, i just breathed. i was aware of my body, and sensations in my hands, my … Continue reading Yesterday
But Sir…
"But Sir..." He raises one eyebrow at me. "But? Turn around, let me see your butt." i giggle at this weak attempt at humor, but i know better than to disobey, i turn and lean forward so he can easily whack my butt - hard - once on each cheek. "Stand up now, no, … Continue reading But Sir…
What i Don’t Like
i don't like non-consensual sex or non-consensual spanking in my BDSM books. Well, wait, sometimes i do. Like Story of O or the Gorean slave books or Barbary Revenge, then yeah, it's fine. The whole thing is pretty non-consensual from start to finish, so that's like a particular genre. But in some supposedly romantic, kind of … Continue reading What i Don’t Like
Bored
"i'm bored," i say. "Bored?" Sir looks up from the blender engine he's taken apart and is putting back together. "Seems like there's plenty to do around here. Plenty that needs doing anyhow." And he goes back to work, completely focused on the tiny screwdriver and parts in front of him. i huff a little … Continue reading Bored
Check-in 4-10-16
So the week had some ups and some downs. That's ok. They all do. i'm working on being less judgmental about my self these days - since that's what i'm forever telling other people to do!! It's good to practice what you preach. In other news, i lost a pound, gained a pound and a … Continue reading Check-in 4-10-16
In Real Life
In real life, i don't have a Dom who's going to oversee my use - or overuse - of social media. I don't have a Dom who will help me work through my obsessive talking myself out of trying things where i might fail. i don't have a Dom to reset me with a spanking. … Continue reading In Real Life
The Punishment – Part VI
In a heap at his feet, resting my head against his thigh, i am content. The punishment is complete, and i have managed to bring him to orgasm with my mouth. He strokes my head, "Good girl." i'm almost purring with satisfaction, although i haven't been allowed to have an orgasm myself. It's painful when … Continue reading The Punishment – Part VI
The Sacred Feminine
Walking with the goddess... the path of the sacred feminine... these ideas touch me deeply. i love the feeling it gives me to think in those terms. This article, for example, really resonates with me.And while submission is a way to access the sacred feminine, lacking the opportunity to practice that with a dominant, i seek … Continue reading The Sacred Feminine
Olivia 