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I am on and off the healthy eating wagon like – um, like I don’t know what. Like a merry-go-round? Like a – yeah, like this analogy just fell flat on its face. Never mind. But I’ve gone back to counting calories, recording them carefully in my Fitbit app.

I might have binged a little bit yesterday – Valentine’s Day and all, but even with that I wasn’t too over the top. Glucose levels are good. MP (My Partner) bought dinner for everyone, which was a nice treat.

AND I’ve been walking a lot more. My average step count was 5,132, but it was more consistently that level, rather than 2,000 or 3,000 most days and 10,000 one day.

I’m having trouble with my feet, and that actually makes walking a little bit more challenging than it would be otherwise. Between Morton’s Neuroma on one foot and plantar fascitis on the other foot, it’s not as much fun as it could be. But I hang in there. Do you know what one of the causes of plantar fascitis is? Obesity. No, I’m not kidding. It just seems unfair, doesn’t it? One more way that being overweight hinders losing weight. Ugh.

I’m thinking about trying bike riding, but I keep envisioning me sprawled on the concrete with a broken hip or something. Ok, broken wrist might be more likely. But that would really screw me in terms of work. And even be worse than being fat.

I have my final interview for this contract position I want – in about an hour and a half. Yikes. I think it will probably be ok, but it still makes me nervous. Of course. So keep your fingers crossed for me, ok?

I’m going to take a shower now. And put on makeup. See ya later…

Happy Valentine’s Day – and here are some memes that I thought were appropriately Valentine’s Day hot!

I’m a natural submissive, living without the D again these days, but my basic nature doesn’t change. I’m just in the “i’m ok with it,” phase. Hang with me and I’m sure we’ll ride the roller-coaster again.

Hope all your kinky love fantasies come true today!

(I’ll have to come back later and write descriptions for the pictures – sorry!)

Ok, let’s get the check-in out of the way. I’m doing better. I have a whole new strategy. Instead of making a list of the things I’m supposed to do and failing to do most of them, I just write down the things I do every day. It’s kind of fun, and I think it’s helping.

So – steps average is 5,690 which is pretty good. I’ve been doing exercise throughout the day – or like on Wednesday, I went to the beach and walked a lot. It was sunny and 65 or 70 degrees.

But my news of the day is the house that they’re calling 50 Shades of Maple Glenn. It’s on the market right now. A gorgeous house – with a lovely, well-equiped dungeon in the basement. Nope, not kidding.

Check it out.

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And look at that gorgeous bathroom! Anyhow, you can read all about it here if you want to. Many thanks to Jade, who posted it on Facebook.

And here I am, a day late again. I was excited earlier this week – I got my 6 month lab work back and everything looked good – um, except cholesterol, which was high and she wants me to start on statins. Which I still don’t want to. We’re negotiating. Vitamin D levels were low, so I’ve started taking that too, which might help my energy level.

Step count is 5,200, which isn’t too shabby. I’ve been trying to take a break and do a 10 or 20 minute walk throughout the day. Actually, I’ve only done it once or twice a day so far, but that’s better than not doing it at all. I just need to keep plugging away at it and not get irritated with myself and quit.

I ‘m moving forward on the job i applied for – well, it’s contract labor, not a job. But that’s good. I think it will be enough to help financially without taking so much of my time that I can’t work on building my practice. And I think it will be fun and interesting. So that’s exciting. I still have to do one more interview type thing – actually, it’s a mock coaching session, and I don’t expect to have any problem with that.

I have an unusual weekend ahead of me. Sir has gone back to Where-we-used-to-Live – he left last night and will be back Monday night. It’s about 11 hours on the road each way, so I think he’s kind of nuts. I’d like to go back for a visit, and might do it when the cheap airline starts running again in March. But he’s really going to see his grandkids and a friend – and to go a to a SuperBowl party. I probably don’t need to tell you that I have NO desire to go the party (and um, wasn’t actually invited. I don’t think women go to it at all, at least not that I can imagine.) Anyhow, I’m glad he’s going, it will be nice for him and I don’t envy him the drive.

My daughter has a full dance card this weekend too – kids are doing an overnight at a friends so she can go out to a semi-fun, semi-networking event tonight. She is involved in an activity that meets on Sunday and I’ll babysit. But right now I I have the house completely to myself -and will have for the rest of the day. You can not imagine how unusual that is. Sometimes, there’s 30 minutes that everyone else is gone but this is luxurious hours all to myself. I don’t even know what I”m going to do with myself. It’s very exciting.

Tomorrow afternoon, I’m going to a networking event myself. Should be interesting… Now I just have to figure out what to wear.

As you may have noticed, the whole BDSM thing has faded back out of my relationship again. Sir is still doing better in other ways, which is cool, and we’re closer than we were before. I guess I’m ok with how things are now.

The sun just came out, it’s almost 2:30 in the afternoon and I’m lollygagging around in my jammies and robe. Time to get dressed and start the day.

And things are better.

It is clear that I can only do a few goals at a time. And that’s ok. Or it’s just how it is. If I focus on the goals I didn’t meet this time, then the goals I did meet become unmet. If that makes sense.

Steps are up. I’ve really put some focus and energy there, using my 10 minute video walks and actually getting outside and walking.

• Average = 6,492
• High = 10,857

I quit doing yoga – I was supposed to be doing a 30-day challenge with a small group of friends. The video series was supposed to be all levels, but was way too advanced for me. On the yoga spectrum, I am closer to chair yoga than I am to yoga involving planks and side planks. I didn’t even know planks were a thing in yoga! I told myself I would find a simpler version, but I didn’t do it this week. The good news is, I can now say I’ve actually done yoga. The bad news, of course, is that it wasn’t a very good experience.

I did better with my meditation challenge, and am still in the running to succeed with that!

I’ve quit drinking alcohol – not that I was a big drinker, but I almost always had a glass of wine, sometimes two, with dinner. So I haven’t been drinking for a couple of weeks, and you might think that would promote weight loss, but no. Not so far. I’m still at 160. So there’s that.

And it also hasn’t promoted better sleep. I’m averaging about 6 hours/night, which is not really enough, but it’s mostly because I’ve been waking up too early. Not like 2 am too early but maybe an hour before I have to actually get up.

Finally, I’ve applied for a job. Not full-time, part-time with flexible hours, which would be ideal. It’s a coaching job, so that’s cool. I applied, had a first interview (which was a videotape of me answering three questions) and am waiting to hear back. I think it would be a great move at this point. I’d enjoy it and it would give me a bit of financial security while I work on building my own practice, so keep your fingers crossed. I should hear something within the next few days.

Now I think I’ll go snooze for a bit…

You can call me Just-A-Bit-Grumpy today – a little out of sorts for who knows what reason. But it comes and goes (like waves in the ocean.) One minute I’m feeling all growly and the next I think all smiles and everything’s lovely. Shrug. Whate -ev-er.

My step count average this week = 5,059. My weight is still hovering around 160. My life is still not organized (this should not be a shock to anyone.)

I only got about 4 1/2 hours sleep last night, so I’m a bit groggy too. Going to try to take a nap in a few minutes.

I was going to add some quotes from Mary Oliver, since she died yesterday, but I’m too sleepy. Back later…