I realized on my mini-retreat that I missed connecting with people. That’s not usually the case. Usually, I savor being alone. The silence. The freedom. This time, I noticed pretty quickly that I wanted to share this time with other people. It kind of confused me for a minute. But I decided to invite my … Continue reading More Revelations

In real life, Gentle Readers, I spent a bunch of time at doctor appointments yesterday. They did some tests and then I met with the doctor who was going to do my surgery next week. Yes, that's "was." The tests showed that all indications of the problems I'd had were gone. They don't know why, … Continue reading IRL

She read through it again. "Her legs trembled, but she didn't look away. 'Yes, Sir, I agree to obey,' and if her voice shook as she said the last part, it was understandable, but she went on, "agree to obey without question, without knowing what you will ask of me ahead of time.'" She smiled … Continue reading And Then He Was There

My dear friend, Jade, left a comment recently noting that I need to carve out some time for myself, and fortunately, that was already in my plan. Next weekend, I'm heading out on Thursday night and not coming home til Sunday. I won't have a view of the ocean this time, but I'll be in … Continue reading Escaping

I may have mentioned before that I have an hitachi magic wand that MP gave me a few years ago. Since he and I don't play anymore, it's been my go-to for basic maintenance. I am not a creative self-pleasurer, I tend to be a "wham-bam - now go to sleep" kind of girl. The … Continue reading Happy Valentine’s Day (to me.) And you.

So I had this revelation - you know, the kind that once you have it, you think, 'well, duh, of course.' But somehow it just hadn't been in the front of your mind. No, my therapist didn't help me have this - what should I call it? A re-revelation? I'm still spinning my wheels on … Continue reading Not Really a Revelation

I've noticed lately that my moods change quickly and easily. One minute I'm feeling all zen and the next I'm really up and energized and then I'm bummed out and feel like life is pointless and everything's wrong. I'm more irritable, internally, if not externally. Of course, I could be feeling more because I'm not … Continue reading Mood City

JUST VENTING -- JUST VENTING -- JUST VENTING -- JUST VENTING Or maybe it's a rant. What's the difference? Ok, according to yahoo: Venting is when you're angry and you need to get something out of your system. You vent to a person who actually wants to listen and cares about why you're angry. When … Continue reading My Life is a Joke

On Friday, I came home from the hospital. It was just a short stay (day and a half) and I'm not complaining. It was not Covid, and it was not a heart attack or a stroke. It was, apparently, my gall bladder. A gallstone, in fact. It could have been much worse, in a multitude … Continue reading In Olivia News