i don't like non-consensual sex or non-consensual spanking in my BDSM books. Well, wait, sometimes i do. Like Story of O or the Gorean slave books or Barbary Revenge, then yeah, it's fine. The whole thing is pretty non-consensual from start to finish, so that's like a particular genre. But in some supposedly romantic, kind of … Continue reading What i Don’t Like
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Bored
"i'm bored," i say. "Bored?" Sir looks up from the blender engine he's taken apart and is putting back together. "Seems like there's plenty to do around here. Plenty that needs doing anyhow." And he goes back to work, completely focused on the tiny screwdriver and parts in front of him. i huff a little … Continue reading Bored
Check-in 4-10-16
So the week had some ups and some downs. That's ok. They all do. i'm working on being less judgmental about my self these days - since that's what i'm forever telling other people to do!! It's good to practice what you preach. In other news, i lost a pound, gained a pound and a … Continue reading Check-in 4-10-16
In Real Life
In real life, i don't have a Dom who's going to oversee my use - or overuse - of social media. I don't have a Dom who will help me work through my obsessive talking myself out of trying things where i might fail. i don't have a Dom to reset me with a spanking. … Continue reading In Real Life
The Punishment – Part VI
In a heap at his feet, resting my head against his thigh, i am content. The punishment is complete, and i have managed to bring him to orgasm with my mouth. He strokes my head, "Good girl." i'm almost purring with satisfaction, although i haven't been allowed to have an orgasm myself. It's painful when … Continue reading The Punishment – Part VI
The Sacred Feminine
Walking with the goddess... the path of the sacred feminine... these ideas touch me deeply. i love the feeling it gives me to think in those terms. This article, for example, really resonates with me.And while submission is a way to access the sacred feminine, lacking the opportunity to practice that with a dominant, i seek … Continue reading The Sacred Feminine
Pure Escapism
Last night, when i could have been writing a blog post, or doing a lot of other things, i was reading a new book instead. And i have no regrets. i was going to buy Punishing Portia, which i first heard about on Leather Cuffs and Silken Bonds. i've been reluctant to buy seriously erotic material … Continue reading Pure Escapism
Check-in 4-3-16
i haven't met my goals yet. i know, that's a shock, right? Just kidding, of course i haven't. i haven't even really set goals yet. It hasn't even been 2 weeks since i decided to change my life in some radical ways. i was prepared to come over here and yell at myself for not … Continue reading Check-in 4-3-16
In my life (part 2)
“I am an expression of the divine, just like a peach is, just like a fish is. I have a right to be this way...I can't apologize for that, nor can I change it, nor do I want to... We will never have to be other than who we are in order to be successful...We … Continue reading In my life (part 2)
In my life
If we were once all hunters and gatherers, then you would think of me as a gatherer. Hunters have a sharp focus and head out into the world with the intent of bagging a lion - or whatever prize they want. A lion or a good deal on a car or a big promotion … Continue reading In my life