i found a place where i can go to learn and practice meditation. It's Buddhist, which is about as close to a religion as i have these days. i'm kind of excited. I'll be out of town this week, so i can't start til next Tuesday, but it's something to look forward to. i also … Continue reading Breathing
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Surrounded
i'm surrounded by people and animals who all want attention and nurturing and care of some sort. From youngest to oldest, they take turns presenting themselves in need of whatever they need. Diaper changes. Conversation. Redirection. Hugs. Laughter. Carrying. Encouraging. Supporting. I'm exhausted and overwhelmed all the time. When i'm not responding to them, i'm … Continue reading Surrounded
Trudging along
I start my mornnigs hopeful and enthusiastic about my productivity durnign the day, my impending sense of accomplishment. A few hours later, i begin to scale back my expectations. i decide my to-do list covers the next 2 or 3 days. Time passes. Unexpected things happen. i had something due by 1:00 today. It was … Continue reading Trudging along
Work Day
Working at home, on the home, that is. Evacuation is over. We're home and all is well. Yay!! Feeling a bit less pouty, more likely to be snippy. And that's ok.
Here we go again…
This is not news to me: “Repressed and suppressed feelings require counter-energy to keep them submerged. It takes energy to hold down our feelings. As these feelings are relinquished, the energy that had been holding down the negativity is now freed for constructive uses.” ― David R. Hawkins, Letting Go: The Pathway of Surrender Neither … Continue reading Here we go again…
Ridiculousness
So now i'm all pouty because I'm here by myself. MP left for breakfast this morning and never came back (again. Just like yesterday.) He did message me a couple of times. But when i asked about his dinner plans, he told me and didn't ask me if i wanted to come too. Well, fine. … Continue reading Ridiculousness
Wrong Turn
It seems like I am living my life on other people's agendas. And making the wrong decision every time I hit a fork in the road. Not that there have been any disastrous consequences, just not ever quite flowing. Example - yesterday, i planned to get my nails done. Instead, i piddled around making sure … Continue reading Wrong Turn
The Storm Within?
Physically safe and rested again, thank goodness. Fully aware of how privileged i am to have somewhere safe to go and the means to get there. i was super irritated with myself last night as i realized that i was working on everyone else's agenda and ignoring my own. But. Nobody is making me do … Continue reading The Storm Within?
Evacuating
Hurricane Irma is headed our way. We're leaving, going to drive all the way to Where-i-Used-to-Live. Catch ya later...
Today’s Not Really News…
Last night, i had a chance to do some literal self-care - you know, epiladied my legs, put a ton of lotion on my feet. You wouldn't think that was something one needed to leave town to do. i have not been taking care of myself. This man i've been chatting with on fetlife asked … Continue reading Today’s Not Really News…
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