It's really a mental health day, so i intend to enjoy it. i may do some writing later, or i may not, but now i'm going back to bed.
Just me
What Now?
If i wait even a few hours more, i will have missed the opportunity to post on Tuesday. So here i am. "i imagine" is on hold in my brain, and i was worried about that, but i realized today that it's ok, it needs to shift and if i open myself to new ideas, … Continue reading What Now?
Mindless Monday
Here i am without a post in mind and the day is half gone. More than half. So here are a couple of quotes to ponder: “The way I try to phrase it when I am pressed for time is to say that I am sexually submissive, and socially assertive.” ― Senta Holland, Out of … Continue reading Mindless Monday
Sunday Check-In July 9
Here i am - in a hurry - lots of stuff to do today. It's been a tough week in some ways, and a terrific week in others. i'm not losing weight or gaining weight, not exercising consistently, not on the right track with a mindfulness practice. But i don't seem to be beating myself … Continue reading Sunday Check-In July 9
In Real Time
In real time, in the US, black men are being shot and killed by police officers and i've been grieving for them and their families, and for my black friends who are traumatized and who have to live with knowing that they are more at risk of dying needlessly because they are black. In real … Continue reading In Real Time
The Magic Wand
The Magic Wand arrived yesterday. It looks like this: It makes me feel like this: Loveliest orgasm ever. i haven't forgotten about "i imagine," but i still need to edit the next part. And i admit, my brain is sometimes elsewhere. i think i might have to start calling MP "Sir" again. i asked him … Continue reading The Magic Wand
Collar Me
If you're not familiar with CollarMe, it's one of the dating sites for kinky people. Unlike fetlife, you often get lots of immediate responses to your profile - but the profile usually explicitly says you're seeking some kind of relationship. i met MP through CollarMe about 5 years ago, and took my profile down after … Continue reading Collar Me
Sunday Check-in 7-3
Just a quick note. We're out of town, visiting MP's daughter and grandkids. i was a little overwhelmed yesterday - i felt like i'd been around people way too much and i was just on overload. i was a bit cranky, and snappy, which i don't like. By the end of the day, i just … Continue reading Sunday Check-in 7-3
i am not freaking out…
i'm really not. i had this fairly uncomfortable conversation with MP about whether or not he wanted me to let him know if i found "other ways of fulfilling my D/s needs." i was super calm, and so was he. His response was essentially that he wanted me to wait some more and maybe he … Continue reading i am not freaking out…
Orgasmic Meditation
Got all excited this morning - so to speak - because i saw a post about orgasmic meditation and how you could learn it on-line "in the privacy of your own home." When i went to the website, i discovered that registration was free and the initial consult was reduced in price - to $150. … Continue reading Orgasmic Meditation
Olivia 