And as soon as i thought that - because i really am still out of sorts, and trying to ride it out - i decided to google images for it. That was actually helpful. First, i found this: ...which is exactly right. That's how i feel. Not every minute of the day, but a … Continue reading SO Out of Sorts…
Author: olivia
Energy
i feel like my energy is being pulled in different directions. It's like this: And it kind of feels like this: But then you have to imagine it's a GIF and everything is being tugged toward the outside and away from each other. Does that make sense? Yeah. So i also have this sense of … Continue reading Energy
Home Sick
It's really a mental health day, so i intend to enjoy it. i may do some writing later, or i may not, but now i'm going back to bed.
What Now?
If i wait even a few hours more, i will have missed the opportunity to post on Tuesday. So here i am. "i imagine" is on hold in my brain, and i was worried about that, but i realized today that it's ok, it needs to shift and if i open myself to new ideas, … Continue reading What Now?
Mindless Monday
Here i am without a post in mind and the day is half gone. More than half. So here are a couple of quotes to ponder: “The way I try to phrase it when I am pressed for time is to say that I am sexually submissive, and socially assertive.” ― Senta Holland, Out of … Continue reading Mindless Monday
Sunday Check-In July 9
Here i am - in a hurry - lots of stuff to do today. It's been a tough week in some ways, and a terrific week in others. i'm not losing weight or gaining weight, not exercising consistently, not on the right track with a mindfulness practice. But i don't seem to be beating myself … Continue reading Sunday Check-In July 9
i imagine (15)
He lets me sit at his feet for a long time, at least it seems like a long time to me. He offers me water, and i drink quite a bit. He lets me go to the bathroom, and come back to settle again. i am feeling pretty content despite the humiliation and punishment i've … Continue reading i imagine (15)
In Real Time
In real time, in the US, black men are being shot and killed by police officers and i've been grieving for them and their families, and for my black friends who are traumatized and who have to live with knowing that they are more at risk of dying needlessly because they are black. In real … Continue reading In Real Time
The Magic Wand
The Magic Wand arrived yesterday. It looks like this: It makes me feel like this: Loveliest orgasm ever. i haven't forgotten about "i imagine," but i still need to edit the next part. And i admit, my brain is sometimes elsewhere. i think i might have to start calling MP "Sir" again. i asked him … Continue reading The Magic Wand
Collar Me
If you're not familiar with CollarMe, it's one of the dating sites for kinky people. Unlike fetlife, you often get lots of immediate responses to your profile - but the profile usually explicitly says you're seeking some kind of relationship. i met MP through CollarMe about 5 years ago, and took my profile down after … Continue reading Collar Me
Olivia 