i have some fascination with cock worship, both as a practice and as an academic topic. There's some really interesting material about cock worship as a religious practice in this article in Cracked, and maybe i'll talk more about that another time. But today, all of that is just to serve as lead in to this … Continue reading Phallic Symbols
Author: olivia
The Fair
i went to the fair yesterday. By myself, so there was time and space for about 5o years of memories of the fair. Early in the day, i saw a number of people carrying around yardsticks. It made me smile, remembering the time, probably 6 or 7 years ago now, that a Dom i was … Continue reading The Fair
He Ghosted
RS, our potential guy, ghosted. Last thing he said was "looking forward to meeting you both," and MP emailed him a suggestion that we get together for dinner - that was Sunday. Nothing since then. It's ok. Seriously. Maybe he thought i was going to send him a tit pic and was disappointed, maybe he … Continue reading He Ghosted
Intricate Links
i believe there are intricate links between BDSM and trauma and healing. i don't understand how it works, but i believe it connects. I just don't know how. i don't even know what kind of connection it is, i just know it's there. In any case. i know that being spanked a couple of nights … Continue reading Intricate Links
Yikes!
Ok, y'all, it looks like this might actually happen. Pictures have been exchanged with RS (clothes on) and he and MP have exchanged email and - um, i think we're going to probably actually meet for dinner. Seriously, y'all. i have never been one to dream of a threesome. Two men was not on my … Continue reading Yikes!
Things are happening…
Three cool things happened yesterday. i'd been chatting, super briefly, with a Dom in a nearby city who seemed like a nice guy. But when MP agreed to be involved in finding me a Dom play partner, i promised him that i wouldn't exclude him from any relationship i might have like that. So a … Continue reading Things are happening…
Now
"Now," he says. i glance up - now, what? "Sir?" i say. "Now," he says, "It's time for you to come to bed. It's almost midnight." "Yes - yes, Sir, i am coming, i just need to finish..." but he raises that eyebrow, and i sigh. "Yes, Sir," closing my laptop as i say it. … Continue reading Now
Things i never knew…
i was masturbating and having orgasms long before i connected it with the word for orgasm. i was having orgasms long before i knew there was a clitoris. i was having sex long before i knew that the-thing-that-happened-that-felt-good when i masturbated was the thing people were talking about that was supposed to happen - or … Continue reading Things i never knew…
Thoughts (vanilla flavored)
i ran across this quote today: "One of the biggest misconceptions about connecting is seeking, first, to be liked. In fact, the counterintuitive way to get someone to like you is in knowing this core truth: If they like the way they feel when around you, they will like you. In fact, they will project … Continue reading Thoughts (vanilla flavored)
Sunday Check-in; 8-14-16
You will not be surprised to learn that i desire this state: “A balanced inner calmness radiates from a peaceful centre. It neither craves others' approval nor rejects others' presence. It neither pulls towards nor pushes away. It has a reverent attitude towards life and all its inhabitants.” ― Donna Goddard, The Love of Devotion … Continue reading Sunday Check-in; 8-14-16
