You will not be surprised to learn that i desire this state:
“A balanced inner calmness radiates from a peaceful centre. It neither craves others’ approval nor rejects others’ presence. It neither pulls towards nor pushes away. It has a reverent attitude towards life and all its inhabitants.”
― Donna Goddard, The Love of Devotion
Nor shocked to be assured that i haven’t achieved it. But i’m closer to it than i was five years ago. Or ten.
i’m coming down from a fairly brutal work week – not the whole week, but the last part of it was rough, and i’m still evaluating how it went. Catching myself judging myself, and sometimes others, harshly, feeling angry toward people who didn’t do things the way that would have most helpful to me. Taking these words to heart:
“Remember, everyone you meet is really trying to do the best they can. No one woke up today and intentionally decided to be mean, difficult, or unreasonable – including you.”
~~ John Bruna
My work schedule is going to get lighter in the next few months, and i’m looking forward to that. Trying to lay the groundwork for using some of that time to attend to self-care.
(Happiness is not a matter of intensity, but of balance, order, rhythm, and harmony.)
Woke up too early today – like 3:30 this morning – and couldn’t go back to sleep. Went ahead and got up about 4:00, but now i’m ready to go back to bed. So i guess i’ll do that now…
4 thoughts on “Sunday Check-in; 8-14-16”
i’m hoping your first priority when you have the time is to create a little space for yourself, somewhere that is just for you to decompress, in the house. i think you need that and it will go far to helping you feel more balanced. You are exceptionally talented at your profession, and that in itself can make it really hard to not judge (ourselves and others). Many hugs!! (Ps Ms. Constance is back home on blogland!!!!) xo
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Yeah that’s a good point. Thanks! And I saw Ms Constance was back!! Yay!
“Trying to lay the groundwork for using some of that time to attend to self-care.”??
“Do. Or do not. There is no try.” – Yoda
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Yoda – hmpf.
Ok, yes, point taken. Thanks, Jz. 🙂