“We grow up in a world where satisfying our cravings seems to be the number one objective, every advertisement on television and the newspaper calls for one craving or another to be dealt with. When it comes to sex we are bombarded every which way, so much so, that we think solving our cravings is … Continue reading Questions from the Universe
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Training – Part II
i had not noticed that the woman who let us in had come back into the room. She is carrying a tray with two cups and what i imagine can only be a pot of tea. She sets the tray down on a small table and then turns to Sir Joseph. "What else would you … Continue reading Training – Part II
Training – Part I
"But - what kind of training school is it?" i ask, naively, i realize now. "For submissives, of course," he says, smiling at me, one hand fisted in my hair. "I would want you to go on Friday afternoon, after work, and stay the weekend -well, through Monday really, since it's a three day weekend." … Continue reading Training – Part I
Sunday Check-in 5-15
i can't seem to hold my goals in my head - or keep them in front of me the way i'd like to. i wasn't as productive as i'd like to be this week, i didn't do any of the things that i've talked about wanting to do. i've exercised a couple of times, but … Continue reading Sunday Check-in 5-15
An Open Mind
'What's on your mind?" he asks. Deep in thought, i say, "Nothing, really," but then i hear what i've said and see his face, eyebrows raised. My eyes widen, and i swallow hard, wishing i could take those careless words back. It is, of course, too late. "That's ten," he says casually. "With the crop … Continue reading An Open Mind
BDSM and me
i am realizing that i have a full-blown philosophy about BDSM. (In case anyone still thinks that being submissive means not having your own opinions - um, no. It doesn't mean that.) My concept of BDSM... ...requires clear, specific consent. You can consent to not having a safe-word, you can consent to non-consensual consent if you … Continue reading BDSM and me
In the light of day
“Those who love you are not fooled by mistakes you have made or dark images you hold about yourself. They remember your beauty when you feel ugly; your wholeness when you are broken; your innocence when you feel guilty; and your purpose when you are confused.” -Alan Cohen Finding my balance again - somewhere between … Continue reading In the light of day
A Hypocrite
i am a hypocrite. And at the moment, awash in shame. Yeah. The only way out of that is by changing my actions so they match my values. i know this. There's no reason to talk about what i'm going to do, or make excuses for why i haven't already, i just need to fucking do … Continue reading A Hypocrite
Just Chillin’
Being on vacation is lovely. i have not even been thinking too hard about stuff. It's funny, for a day or two i was thinking about practices i could start that would increase my sense of submission. In particular, the blog i was talking about before, he did this lovely post about that, you can … Continue reading Just Chillin’
Maybe i’m not
"Maybe i'm not even submissive," i say with a sigh. He glances up from his dinner, "You've been reading other people's blogs again, haven't you?" i giggle, he knows me so well. "Maybe. Ok, yes." He nods. "Come here." i hesitate - i haven't finished eating either. "Bring me your plate," he says, noticing the … Continue reading Maybe i’m not
Olivia 