Having backed off from any vanilla relationship possibilities, I turned my attention to the kink dating scene. I signed up for BDSM Seniors (don't laugh.) Ok, laugh if you want to, but there I was. I couldn't find any info on what it would cost before I made a profile, so I half-ass threw something … Continue reading Fetlife Fun, Edition 58

I have reminded my self to back up and take care of myself. Being on the dating site, even for a minute, was also a reminder that all relationships come with their own baggage. I have to laugh at myself - here’s what I want: Someone who can see me for who I am, both … Continue reading Better, Better…

And I canceled the subscription. Can't do it. No dating apps for me. It was too awkward. Not that I actually talked to anybody. But I had to decide when I was going to talk about MP, and no matter how I pictured that, it didn't feel right. There is just no way to say, … Continue reading Or Not

That's what I feel like right now. Once again, I can sense the possibilities of the universe - or at least some possibilities for me. I am connecting with a community that understands trauma. I guess that sounds weird. But a truly trauma-informed setting can make us feel like we're being held gently, appreciated for … Continue reading Loading…

There have always been reasons I come back to post here. Used to be something kinky would be on my mind and this was the best place to share it. Today, it’s not anything kinky. But I found this picture on pixabay and fell in love with it. It needs some text on that blank … Continue reading Butterfly Banner

Melancholy is a lovely word, isn't it? The feeling is not so pleasant, but not terrible either, and if I'm going to feel melancholy, the beach is a good place to do it. Lonely. Lonely by default, I think. Not a great friend, I’m here when you reach out but I’ll let forever go by, … Continue reading Melancholy at the Beach

As you may know, I am a huge fan of Slave Shae. If you don't follow her already, you may want to. I've become a bit addicted to the series of posts she's doing with a theme of being shared with a Dom she doesn't know, one whom her Mistress has loaned her to. Addicted … Continue reading A Slave

So here’s a thing. Maya Angelou, I think, says, ”when someone shows you who they are, believe them the first time.” I’m not always so good at that, but once I finally get there, I’m there. I was also raised to believe you don’t talk about family problems in public. Sometimes, I adhere to that, … Continue reading Hard Truths

“Let us dance in the sun, wearing wild flowers in our hair…”― susan polis schutz I can’t say I celebrated today… I had a dentist appointment at 7 a.m. (just a cleaning, but still!) And clients til 8 p.m. With breaks, but still. I am a bit brain dead. I will have to celebrate another … Continue reading Happy Summer Solstice

Just popping in… I’m working a lot, but not too much. Not getting rich, but keeping the wolf from the door. Still moving every day, getting my steps in - not 10,000, but closer than I used to be. Progress, not perfection, right? In other news, I have a therapist I really, really like. He … Continue reading It’s me