And I canceled the subscription.
Can’t do it. No dating apps for me. It was too awkward.
Not that I actually talked to anybody. But I had to decide when I was going to talk about MP, and no matter how I pictured that, it didn’t feel right.
There is just no way to say, “Oh, yeah, I live with somebody, but I just kind of take care of him, in a half-assed way. We used to be in a relationship, but now we’re not, because he’s disabled” without sounding like a terrible person. (Without being a terrible person?)
Even if I told MP up front and he was ok with it, it doesn’t feel right.
I feel so trapped.
Olivia 
Sending lots of hugs your way, Olivia. I don’t have a full understanding of your relationship with MP but this sounds very hard. If you ever want to talk about this in more depth, please feel free to reach out via email. My situation is different than yours but there are some similarities. Us gals have to stick together ❤
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I may do that, Nora. I think there are some similarities too. Thank you!! 💜
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Much love to you, my friend ❤
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I hope things work out for you and MP, Olivia. Take care of yourself.
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Thanks, my friend. I mean, they can’t really work out for us – they aren’t going to get better. But maybe I’ll get better at managing my feelings! Thank you. 💜
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Sending huge hugs Olivia. It has to be hard
Hugs
Roz
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I hope you can find your way to happiness, however that looks is up to you- and not for others to judge. Maybe some day you’ll be okay with giving the grace you give others to yourself.
💕
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Willie! Thanks for stopping in! You are really right – I think I am still hard on myself. But the key is figuring out what happiness looks like for me…. Thanks for the support.
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