RS, our potential guy, ghosted. Last thing he said was "looking forward to meeting you both," and MP emailed him a suggestion that we get together for dinner - that was Sunday. Nothing since then. It's ok. Seriously. Maybe he thought i was going to send him a tit pic and was disappointed, maybe he … Continue reading He Ghosted
BDSM
Intricate Links
i believe there are intricate links between BDSM and trauma and healing. i don't understand how it works, but i believe it connects. I just don't know how. i don't even know what kind of connection it is, i just know it's there. In any case. i know that being spanked a couple of nights … Continue reading Intricate Links
Things are happening…
Three cool things happened yesterday. i'd been chatting, super briefly, with a Dom in a nearby city who seemed like a nice guy. But when MP agreed to be involved in finding me a Dom play partner, i promised him that i wouldn't exclude him from any relationship i might have like that. So a … Continue reading Things are happening…
Now
"Now," he says. i glance up - now, what? "Sir?" i say. "Now," he says, "It's time for you to come to bed. It's almost midnight." "Yes - yes, Sir, i am coming, i just need to finish..." but he raises that eyebrow, and i sigh. "Yes, Sir," closing my laptop as i say it. … Continue reading Now
Things i never knew…
i was masturbating and having orgasms long before i connected it with the word for orgasm. i was having orgasms long before i knew there was a clitoris. i was having sex long before i knew that the-thing-that-happened-that-felt-good when i masturbated was the thing people were talking about that was supposed to happen - or … Continue reading Things i never knew…
Thoughts (vanilla flavored)
i ran across this quote today: "One of the biggest misconceptions about connecting is seeking, first, to be liked. In fact, the counterintuitive way to get someone to like you is in knowing this core truth: If they like the way they feel when around you, they will like you. In fact, they will project … Continue reading Thoughts (vanilla flavored)
Sunday Check-in; 8-14-16
You will not be surprised to learn that i desire this state: “A balanced inner calmness radiates from a peaceful centre. It neither craves others' approval nor rejects others' presence. It neither pulls towards nor pushes away. It has a reverent attitude towards life and all its inhabitants.” ― Donna Goddard, The Love of Devotion … Continue reading Sunday Check-in; 8-14-16
44 Odd Things You Don’t Know About Me
Just realized that the font size is seriously messed up on this. Decided it was too perfectionistic to go back and fix it all. Just apologizing instead. I found this on Fiona's blog who found it on Ronnie's who spotted it at Continued Journey : 1. Do you like blue cheese? Yes - love it. 2. Have you ever … Continue reading 44 Odd Things You Don’t Know About Me
Disrespect III
He is fucking my mouth, thrusting his cock deep, as i struggle to relax my throat and take him deeper. i think he is almost there - i can tell he is almost there - and he puts his hand on the back of my head, holding me steady while he pumps again - and … Continue reading Disrespect III
Disrespect II
"How many times," he asks, "Have we had a conversation about you not paying attention, or not focusing, or not being fully present?" Kneeling between his legs, with my ass still stinging from his belt, asshole plugged and a bit uncomfortable, for a second i think he's going to chastise me some more for not … Continue reading Disrespect II
Olivia 