Long ago and faraway when we went to bed he would wrap himself around me from the back and i would snuggle my butt up against his cock and sometimes he would play with my nipples making me squirm just because he could and then he'd go to sleep. Still wrapped around me. Long ago … Continue reading Long ago
Just me
Check-in April 17
Today, i will be finishing my taxes. Well, finishing the necessary forms to file them that is. This is the latest I've been in a long time. I was thinking the week had been a dismal failure, and then i remembered about the goals i set. i thought that was a week ago, but it … Continue reading Check-in April 17
Change?
I I got a message on fetlife, on another profile i used to have, from someone who says he's a Dom and wants to chat. He's married, his wife is not into BDSM. I'm curious. I don't think anything will "come of it," but nice to make a new friend. i am debating whether or … Continue reading Change?
Yesterday
Yesterday, i paid a few dollars to spend 45 minutes in a quiet place, looking at fake stars on the ceiling, listening to piped in New Age music. Reclining in a comfy chair, tucked in with a blanket over me, i just breathed. i was aware of my body, and sensations in my hands, my … Continue reading Yesterday
Tired
i'm tired - and this is real life, not a story. If it were a story, someone would help me manage my time. And there would be spankings involved. Perhaps orgasms even. But i digress. This is just me, feeling tired. It's been a long week - and it's only Wednesday. Another long day to … Continue reading Tired
Check-in 4-10-16
So the week had some ups and some downs. That's ok. They all do. i'm working on being less judgmental about my self these days - since that's what i'm forever telling other people to do!! It's good to practice what you preach. In other news, i lost a pound, gained a pound and a … Continue reading Check-in 4-10-16
In Real Life
In real life, i don't have a Dom who's going to oversee my use - or overuse - of social media. I don't have a Dom who will help me work through my obsessive talking myself out of trying things where i might fail. i don't have a Dom to reset me with a spanking. … Continue reading In Real Life
The Sacred Feminine
Walking with the goddess... the path of the sacred feminine... these ideas touch me deeply. i love the feeling it gives me to think in those terms. This article, for example, really resonates with me.And while submission is a way to access the sacred feminine, lacking the opportunity to practice that with a dominant, i seek … Continue reading The Sacred Feminine
Pure Escapism
Last night, when i could have been writing a blog post, or doing a lot of other things, i was reading a new book instead. And i have no regrets. i was going to buy Punishing Portia, which i first heard about on Leather Cuffs and Silken Bonds. i've been reluctant to buy seriously erotic material … Continue reading Pure Escapism
Check-in 4-3-16
i haven't met my goals yet. i know, that's a shock, right? Just kidding, of course i haven't. i haven't even really set goals yet. It hasn't even been 2 weeks since i decided to change my life in some radical ways. i was prepared to come over here and yell at myself for not … Continue reading Check-in 4-3-16
Olivia 