I I got a message on fetlife, on another profile i used to have, from someone who says he's a Dom and wants to chat. He's married, his wife is not into BDSM. I'm curious. I don't think anything will "come of it," but nice to make a new friend. i am debating whether or … Continue reading Change?
Just me
Yesterday
Yesterday, i paid a few dollars to spend 45 minutes in a quiet place, looking at fake stars on the ceiling, listening to piped in New Age music. Reclining in a comfy chair, tucked in with a blanket over me, i just breathed. i was aware of my body, and sensations in my hands, my … Continue reading Yesterday
Tired
i'm tired - and this is real life, not a story. If it were a story, someone would help me manage my time. And there would be spankings involved. Perhaps orgasms even. But i digress. This is just me, feeling tired. It's been a long week - and it's only Wednesday. Another long day to … Continue reading Tired
Check-in 4-10-16
So the week had some ups and some downs. That's ok. They all do. i'm working on being less judgmental about my self these days - since that's what i'm forever telling other people to do!! It's good to practice what you preach. In other news, i lost a pound, gained a pound and a … Continue reading Check-in 4-10-16
In Real Life
In real life, i don't have a Dom who's going to oversee my use - or overuse - of social media. I don't have a Dom who will help me work through my obsessive talking myself out of trying things where i might fail. i don't have a Dom to reset me with a spanking. … Continue reading In Real Life
The Sacred Feminine
Walking with the goddess... the path of the sacred feminine... these ideas touch me deeply. i love the feeling it gives me to think in those terms. This article, for example, really resonates with me.And while submission is a way to access the sacred feminine, lacking the opportunity to practice that with a dominant, i seek … Continue reading The Sacred Feminine
Pure Escapism
Last night, when i could have been writing a blog post, or doing a lot of other things, i was reading a new book instead. And i have no regrets. i was going to buy Punishing Portia, which i first heard about on Leather Cuffs and Silken Bonds. i've been reluctant to buy seriously erotic material … Continue reading Pure Escapism
Check-in 4-3-16
i haven't met my goals yet. i know, that's a shock, right? Just kidding, of course i haven't. i haven't even really set goals yet. It hasn't even been 2 weeks since i decided to change my life in some radical ways. i was prepared to come over here and yell at myself for not … Continue reading Check-in 4-3-16
In my life (part 2)
“I am an expression of the divine, just like a peach is, just like a fish is. I have a right to be this way...I can't apologize for that, nor can I change it, nor do I want to... We will never have to be other than who we are in order to be successful...We … Continue reading In my life (part 2)
The Magic of Doms
i was chatting - emailing actually - with a Dom who's an old friend. He's the one that recommended i read Barbary Revenge, and i was feeling some angst about it. It is soooo non-consensual and still so hot and i love it and hate that i love it and what's wrong with me that i … Continue reading The Magic of Doms
Olivia 