i had been asleep, but i wake up quickly. The woman, whose presence i've gotten used to, leads me to the bathroom, and when i am finished there, she nods for me to sit at the table. She gives me the one cup of coffee i am allowed, and one hard-boiled egg, watching patiently while i eat. … Continue reading From a Dark Place
Author: olivia
Nails
Getting my nails done. Often a sensual experience so i'm working on relaxing into it. Its one of the self care things i enjoy but have neglected too often over the last year. I dated someone once who used to say he was going to come with me to watch sometime. There was something erotic … Continue reading Nails
With My Mouth
"Open your mouth," he says. "Yes, like that, good girl. No, don't touch. Wait. Put your hands behind your back. Yes." i am between his legs, on my knees. Waiting for permission to lower my mouth and take his cock in to the wet warmth, to stroke him with my tongue, to suck gently. i … Continue reading With My Mouth
No
"No." His voice is mild, but the word is clear. "No? But Sir - " He moves quickly, two steps forward, a hand in my hair right at the nape of my neck. He tilts my head back firmly, but still gentle, "No. You may not. Now, go stand in the corner. Pull your panties down … Continue reading No
(Not really a post)
Sometimes a big ole dose of reality just smacks you right in the face, and there's nothing you can do but take it. It may not be a kinky smack, or the kind of pain that submissive women like to feel, but there it is. i've gained almost 30 pounds since i've been in … Continue reading (Not really a post)
The Punishment – Part V
i don't know if he will start with the crop or the paddle, so i'm just waiting, holding my breath. And then - whack! It is the paddle, landing directly in the middle of my ass, crossing both cheeks. i make this noise, well, it's like a "whoosh" as my breath leaves my body, and … Continue reading The Punishment – Part V
In my life (part 2)
“I am an expression of the divine, just like a peach is, just like a fish is. I have a right to be this way...I can't apologize for that, nor can I change it, nor do I want to... We will never have to be other than who we are in order to be successful...We … Continue reading In my life (part 2)
The Magic of Doms
i was chatting - emailing actually - with a Dom who's an old friend. He's the one that recommended i read Barbary Revenge, and i was feeling some angst about it. It is soooo non-consensual and still so hot and i love it and hate that i love it and what's wrong with me that i … Continue reading The Magic of Doms
The Punishment – Part IV
For a moment, i'm lost in remembering last night, the stories i had to read, and my longing to feel connected to Master. And then the memory fades, i'm back in the present, kneeling in front of him. The crop and a paddle, that's what he wants. And i can feel it now, the longing … Continue reading The Punishment – Part IV
In my life
If we were once all hunters and gatherers, then you would think of me as a gatherer. Hunters have a sharp focus and head out into the world with the intent of bagging a lion - or whatever prize they want. A lion or a good deal on a car or a big promotion … Continue reading In my life
Olivia 