Today, i decided to skip an activity that i usually do and spend some time taking care of tasks i haven’t done and just some general self-care. By not doing the thing i usually do, i feel like i’m letting other people down, and that doesn’t feel good. At the same time, i think maybe i’m doing the right thing for myself.
How do i know?
i am appalled sometimes by how sensitive i am to other people’s judgement and opinions about me. i’m 60 years old, i think i should i be beyond that somehow. Do i really need someone else to tell me it’s ok to stay home and take care of my own stuff? Apparently i do.
And really, even if that’s true, there’s no point in beating myself up for it. i guess i’ll always be that sensitive to external approval or disapproval. If you knew me IRL, you wouldn’t guess i was like that, it’s a well-hidden part of myself.
There’s not going to be any benefit to having stayed home if i don’t get some stuff done though. And while doing a blog post is on the list, clearly i’m not inspired to do some terrific post.
So i’ll leave this here:.
Seems like a worthy goal.