The theme for today’s post is sleep – lovely, elusive, delightful, can’t-get-enough-of-it sleep.
“Even a soul submerged in sleep
is hard at work and helps
make something of the world.”
But not I. Wide awake since about 3:30 this morning. Sigh.
“Insomnia is a variant of Tourette’s–the waking brain races, sampling the world after the world has turned away, touching it everywhere, refusing to settle, to join the collective nod. The insomniac brain is a sort of conspiracy theorist as well, believing too much in its own paranoiac importance–as though if it were to blink, then doze, the world might be overrun by some encroaching calamity, which its obsessive musings are somehow fending off.”
That’s better. I kind of like the idea that my inability to sleep is somehow preventing a world disaster. At least that makes it worthwhile.
“I’m an insomniac, my mind works the night shift.”
Ok, enough of that nonsense. Well, maybe one more:
“. . . her energy existed in precious spools that came unwound faster than she liked.”
Isn’t that lovely? And so true…
However. My step count this week? I averaged 8,700 steps. Yes, seriously. Of course those numbers reflect a new all-time high count of over 15,000 while i was wandering the streets of New Orleans. Still, that’s exciting to see.
On the other hand, I’m only sleeping about 6 hours/night. I can run on 6 hours, but not well, not over time. So you know, there’s that.
And – here’s why i’m going to have to do FFF forever – i’m actually gaining weight. My range has shifted upwards. It’s true. So i have to put a stop to that. i’ve come too far to go back now.
i feel like i’m busy and overwhelmed too much of the time. And just tired all the damn time.
It’s ok. This too will pass. I’m making progress in lots of things. There’s just so much i want/need to do, you know? Life is good, it’s just a lot.
Ok, i’m gonna lie back down and see if I can snooze for a bit. And console myself with this:
“From the tattered edges of an exhausted mind, inspiration blooms… mental filters disintegrate and walls crumble, as the ocean of creativity washes over everything.”