i've gone public again.  If it looks like we'll be involving someone else in our relationship, i'll probably make the blog private again, but who knows if/when that might be. In the meantime - Hi!!

We were supposed to have dinner with our potential person, but he canceled, explaining that he's had some family issues come up and isn't going to have time for other activities for a while. i am pretty generally ok with that, but wonder what's going to happen with Sir and me.  Also, i've had to … Continue reading Nope

Sir gave me an assignment.  i thought it was a stupid assignment and i didn't want to do it. He says he's training me.  Hmpf. i thought all kinds of mean nasty things about him and his ability to Dom me.  i know, that's not very nice, but i did.  (i started to say it wasn't … Continue reading For Real Now

...there is plenty to worry about, but i don't actually have to worry about any of it. i am not really sure i want to have sex with some stranger.  i mean, why can't Sir just keep being the way he is now? But i don't have to worry about it.  We'll figure it out. … Continue reading The Good News Is…

Sir is running a bit amok.  Serious, sustained playtime two days in a row, sudden 24-7 protocols (mild, but still) and ongoing conversation about Sir John, our possible potential play partner.  He has ordered a bunch of toys and things online for me - an outfit of some sort, panties, a "comfortable blindfold" and a … Continue reading Don’t Laugh…

Yesterday, he told me i need to show him more respect, and i should call him Sir when we're alone.  A couple of weeks ago, i would have felt indignant and scoffed at the idea.  But already it seems quite reasonable.  How quickly this submissive spirit falls into line!  (And that makes me smile.) So … Continue reading Not an Anomaly?

Sir (formerly known as MP) has taken to heart my suggestion that he put his skills in research and problem solving into our relationship, and i'm reaping the benefits. i know, i know, i got all excited before and then it fizzled and it hurt so bad.  But vulnerability is the key to happiness, isn't … Continue reading Moving Forward

So, MP is actually actively looking for a third for us, and discovering a bit of his own libido returning.  We'll see. However.  When i gave him my olivia address - so a possible potential play partner (pppp) could email me - he googled it (MP did) and found the blog.  Which i don't want … Continue reading Things Get Complicated

So i'm in a relationship that is wearing me down, wearing me out. I need so many things I'm not getting. I don't think he's going to do anything to change  any of the way things are. All that crap about how he was going to find someone else as part of our relationship?  Three … Continue reading So