I would really like to get Teacher Certification for the Self-Compassion Mindfulness Course. Really, really. But it would cost about $1,000, which I just don't have to spare. Oh, actually, it would be about $2K because there would be travel expenses. Plus maybe another $500 for the registry fee. Oh, plus loss of income for … Continue reading Self-Compassion

I woke up this morning wondering why no one had commented on this post. NO one. No one liked it. I tried to imagine what was wrong with it. And where was Roz? And now I realize, I didn't hit publish. There is a whole world of irony in that. It fits nicely with my … Continue reading Mundane Moments

I'm delighted at the comments on my last post, and amazed at how many of us are not on social media. I just think it's super interesting. I am on all the social media, (well, "vanilla me" is) and definitely less active on Fetlife than anywhere else. But that's not the correction I came to … Continue reading Clarification…

I'm rarely on Fet, although I have a profile (that doesn't link to this blog, so shhhhh...) But I'll get a message from some random person occasionally and wander over to respond, sometimes have a desultory conversation with them until one of us get bored, That happened recently with someone who goes by the name … Continue reading Fetlife Updates

That title goes with some tune but I don't have any idea what ~~ oh, wait! Yes, I do. It's this one. Duh, it's Feelings. Don't feel like you gotta listen to it, I don't even like it. https://youtu.be/CyBcHUe4WeQ And the part I hear in my head doesn't come in until about 1:25, which is … Continue reading Feelings… stupid frigging feelings…

It’s been a good day to practice self-compassion. Which is a nice way of saying that my internal voice has tended to be harsh today. Which is a nice way to say that I’ve fucked up a couple of times and feel crappy about it. The first time I had an otherwise lovely conversation with … Continue reading A Difficult Day

There’s an article floating around on my FB feed called Today I Learned that Not Everyone Has an Internal Monologue and It Ruined My Day. So my question today is “Do you have one? An internal monologue?” I do. My internal monologue is chatty. And pretty steady. Not as mean as it was when I … Continue reading Just Curious…

I’m still all achy and feel yukky. My whole body just feels out of synch with itself. My skin is too sensitive. My neck hurts. I’m so tired -but I can’t sleep for long. And I’m cold, just cold. It brings to mind other times I’ve felt this way, years ago. Back when I was … Continue reading Here’s What I Need

No, wait, hear me out. I might be. Not in a harsh, mean way, just in a gentle affectionate way. Here's the thing. I was sitting at the table right after dinner when it occured to me that I didn't feel great. A bit light-headed. Arms and legs felt a bit achy. Just a bit … Continue reading But I Really Might Be a Dumb-ass

I'm sorry, I think I have officially driven myself absolutely nuts. I'm in that phase where I'm glued to my computer and can't tear myself away. I'm adding a page to my website and just a bit obsessed with it. I finally had to stop tonight because I was fucking messing it up instead of … Continue reading Out of Control