i can't seem to hold my goals in my head - or keep them in front of me the way i'd like to. i wasn't as productive as i'd like to be this week, i didn't do any of the things that i've talked about wanting to do. i've exercised a couple of times, but … Continue reading Sunday Check-in 5-15
Author: olivia
Just for fun…
You can find the whole story here, but i had to share these: Yep. They're CTHULHU DILDOS. Just what you've always wanted, right? {Walks away laughing...} But they cost between $125 to $175 dollars, so i'm thinking the sellers may get the last laugh... Seriously, though, or semi-seriously, does that appeal to you??? Would you … Continue reading Just for fun…
An Open Mind
'What's on your mind?" he asks. Deep in thought, i say, "Nothing, really," but then i hear what i've said and see his face, eyebrows raised. My eyes widen, and i swallow hard, wishing i could take those careless words back. It is, of course, too late. "That's ten," he says casually. "With the crop … Continue reading An Open Mind
BDSM and me
i am realizing that i have a full-blown philosophy about BDSM. (In case anyone still thinks that being submissive means not having your own opinions - um, no. It doesn't mean that.) My concept of BDSM... ...requires clear, specific consent. You can consent to not having a safe-word, you can consent to non-consensual consent if you … Continue reading BDSM and me
In the light of day
“Those who love you are not fooled by mistakes you have made or dark images you hold about yourself. They remember your beauty when you feel ugly; your wholeness when you are broken; your innocence when you feel guilty; and your purpose when you are confused.” -Alan Cohen Finding my balance again - somewhere between … Continue reading In the light of day
A Hypocrite
i am a hypocrite. And at the moment, awash in shame. Yeah. The only way out of that is by changing my actions so they match my values. i know this. There's no reason to talk about what i'm going to do, or make excuses for why i haven't already, i just need to fucking do … Continue reading A Hypocrite
Just Chillin’
Being on vacation is lovely. i have not even been thinking too hard about stuff. It's funny, for a day or two i was thinking about practices i could start that would increase my sense of submission. In particular, the blog i was talking about before, he did this lovely post about that, you can … Continue reading Just Chillin’
Mother’s Day
Hoping yours is a happy one, whether you're a mother or child or both.
Vacation
i'm on vacation! (Insert happy dance!) i plan to do some writing but internet access will be sporadic, so i may or may not be posting. 💜
Maybe i’m not
"Maybe i'm not even submissive," i say with a sigh. He glances up from his dinner, "You've been reading other people's blogs again, haven't you?" i giggle, he knows me so well. "Maybe. Ok, yes." He nods. "Come here." i hesitate - i haven't finished eating either. "Bring me your plate," he says, noticing the … Continue reading Maybe i’m not
