i have shared this before in a variety of places, but just want to leave it here today. i always have to watch it twice, once because i'm mesmerized by the bodies, and then again so I can let the words register. Hope you enjoy it. (If you can't see it here, go to Youtube … Continue reading Trust
Author: olivia
Sunday Check-in; 5-1-16
Whoa, another week gone by, another check-in, another general lack of any progress in any area. Yep. No increase in exercise, and no weight loss and i didn't do stuff i thought about doing that would have been fun and good for me. i did some binge eating and read two books from the Masters … Continue reading Sunday Check-in; 5-1-16
Goals – the next day
i wake up early. i lie there for a minute, trying to remember what's different today. Then it comes to me - oh. Yes. Oh. I want to go to the bathroom, but i can barely get out of bed. One ankle and one wrist are attached to the bed. i could untie myself, theoretically, but … Continue reading Goals – the next day
Too Tired
Shygirl wrote a lovely post about being sleepy - you may want to read it here, because she says it so well. All i could think was, "Oh! Me too!!" i don't know why i'm so tired - i'm even waking up kind of tired, even when i get up at my normal time. i … Continue reading Too Tired
Goals?
"How much did you get done today?" His voice is gentle, not demanding at all, but i cringe. "Um, i did the dishes and laundry and made the bed, and i even straightened up part of the utility room." Despite myself, my voice goes up in question at the end of that sentence. Is that … Continue reading Goals?
On your knees
"On your knees," he says. i do it quickly. There has been talk lately of a training school, an idea that alternately excites and terrifies me - or maybe that's the same thing. But the thought inspires me to quick obedience. Besides, i love to kneel at his feet. He is naked under his robe, … Continue reading On your knees
Thinking…
i was wondering today when and how i began to think of myself as unfocused and disorganized. No, wait, that's not quite right, but i began to think of myself as "not focused enough," and "not organized enough." i think that i've been missing the point. i can be super focused and super organized ~ when … Continue reading Thinking…
Here
"Here." He snaps his fingers and points to the floor at his feet. "Crawl," he says, with a hint of a smile. i hesitate - just for a moment - but crawl? Alan and Mindy are here! It's bad enough that i'm naked, and the only one naked. Although, Mindy is barely dressed. Still, a … Continue reading Here
Sunday Check-in 4-23-16
i went for a walk yesterday, and the day before, which was really nice. There's a park not too far away - ok, i have to drive to it - but it's really nice. And i played some music. This: (Sacred Spirit Drums; David and Steve Gordon) And this: (Squeeze Box; The Who) And … Continue reading Sunday Check-in 4-23-16
Stop that
"Stop that," he says. "What?" i look innocent, sound innocent, but i totally know what he's talking about. "THAT," he says, taking my phone out of my hand. "You have been on there for at least an hour now. Are you doing anything besides Facebook?" "Um, actually, um, no, no, Sir. " "I thought you … Continue reading Stop that
Olivia 