i haven't met my goals yet. i know, that's a shock, right? Just kidding, of course i haven't. i haven't even really set goals yet. It hasn't even been 2 weeks since i decided to change my life in some radical ways. i was prepared to come over here and yell at myself for not … Continue reading Check-in 4-3-16
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From a Dark Place
i had been asleep, but i wake up quickly. The woman, whose presence i've gotten used to, leads me to the bathroom, and when i am finished there, she nods for me to sit at the table. She gives me the one cup of coffee i am allowed, and one hard-boiled egg, watching patiently while i eat. … Continue reading From a Dark Place
With My Mouth
"Open your mouth," he says. "Yes, like that, good girl. No, don't touch. Wait. Put your hands behind your back. Yes." i am between his legs, on my knees. Waiting for permission to lower my mouth and take his cock in to the wet warmth, to stroke him with my tongue, to suck gently. i … Continue reading With My Mouth
The Punishment – Part V
i don't know if he will start with the crop or the paddle, so i'm just waiting, holding my breath. And then - whack! It is the paddle, landing directly in the middle of my ass, crossing both cheeks. i make this noise, well, it's like a "whoosh" as my breath leaves my body, and … Continue reading The Punishment – Part V
In my life (part 2)
“I am an expression of the divine, just like a peach is, just like a fish is. I have a right to be this way...I can't apologize for that, nor can I change it, nor do I want to... We will never have to be other than who we are in order to be successful...We … Continue reading In my life (part 2)
The Magic of Doms
i was chatting - emailing actually - with a Dom who's an old friend. He's the one that recommended i read Barbary Revenge, and i was feeling some angst about it. It is soooo non-consensual and still so hot and i love it and hate that i love it and what's wrong with me that i … Continue reading The Magic of Doms
The Punishment – Part IV
For a moment, i'm lost in remembering last night, the stories i had to read, and my longing to feel connected to Master. And then the memory fades, i'm back in the present, kneeling in front of him. The crop and a paddle, that's what he wants. And i can feel it now, the longing … Continue reading The Punishment – Part IV
The Punishment – Part III
The Punishment – Part II
It doesn't take me long to find my willingness. All i have to do is remember the night before. He had walked up behind me as i was playing on my computer. "What are you doing?" he asks, his voice deceptively mild. i shut the window. Quickly. Don't want him to see that i'm on … Continue reading The Punishment – Part II
Here i am
Starting over, once again. i don't even look submissive here, do i? But i am. Trust me, i really am. i don't know what i'm going to do here. Fantasy maybe. We'll see. I know I've been on a 2 year decline in self-care and how i treat myself, in terms of being submissive and … Continue reading Here i am
Olivia 