It’s funny – at least I guess it’s funny – that when I start to write a fantasy now, it is always Sir Jon’s face, his voice, his preferences that show up for me. Not haha funny of course. But not odd-funny either, because of course he shows up when I think about being Dom’ed, being used, or played with. He has trained me that way.
And why does that suddenly surprise me? I don’t know. It doesn’t just surprise me, it makes me feel that submissive tug. (That’s what I’m calling it these day – y’all know what I mean.).
Now I’m curious, submissive friends, is it like that for you? Can you do lovely submissive fantasies where the Dom does not not have your Dom’s face?
I’m not sure how I feel about this… I’ve had countless fantasies with a faceless, unnamed Dom. I’m not talking about stories where the character has a name, I’m hoping Lucas and Simon and so on have preserved their own personalities. But all the nameless ones, the ones that are just “He”… are they all going to be him?
Maybe that will make them more fun…
My meditation guide this morning invited us to name an intention for the week. My word of the year is Light, in all its meanings. This week, my intention is Acceptance, being open to seeing things the way they are, not imagining them to be different – for better or worse – than they really are. Letting the Light illuminate my reality.
Today I am feeling myself centered and grounded in my own body, very in tune with myself. I am beginning to have a sense of my own power that pulls from my libido as much as my brain and heart. I have a friend who does energy work, and she’s helped me build this awareness of myself.
{If you can’t see the picture, here’s how ChatGPT describes it, quite accurately: The image features a mystical or ethereal figure that appears to be a female form, set against a soft, purple and pink background that suggests a celestial or otherworldly environment. The figure is holding or interacting with a bright, star-like light source above her head, which radiates glowing lines or beams of light in all directions, creating a dynamic starburst effect. The light and the figure are surrounded by swirls of translucent, ribbon-like energy or matter, enhancing the magical or supernatural vibe of the scene. The figure seems to be semi-transparent, contributing to the overall fantastical and dreamlike quality of the image.}
And that energy is re-dispersed through my life, but I feel like it fuels my submission more than any other aspect. I worry that it is too much. I worry that I’m too submissive and boring. Worry that… you know. Worry, worry, worry, overthink a lot…
“Strip,” he says. ”Quickly. Clothes off. Fold them neatly.”
“Yes, Sir,” and I do – quickly. When I am bare, he says,
“Kneel.”
Quickly, I obey.
“Head to the ground,” he says.
This raises my ass, of course. I feel him move behind me.
“Spread your cheeks,” he says. ”Quickly.”
My heart is pounding, and quickly I obey, hands behind me, feeling the deep humiliation of opening myself in this way.
“This is the medium one,” he says, “it’s supposed to hurt.” I smell lube, waiting, tense.
The plug rimming me, pressing against me… and he pushes. Not pausing, pressing its way in – so tense, so tight –
til he smacks my ass, hard, and I gasp, tears in my eyes, but in that moment, it presses home, lodged inside me, past the hurt, filling me, so full, leaves me feeling small and –
a bit aroused –
and so much his, so much his.
“Do you want to talk about all those worries now?” he asks.
A giggle escapes me, much to my surprise, “Um, no, Sir, I don’t Sir.”
“Have I said that you’re boring and too submissive?”
“No, Sir.”
“Ok. Here’s what we’re going to do. You’re going to wear the plug. You’re going to get up and fix me a diet coke. You may have some water. Get the nipple clamps, and the wooden spoon, the bath brush and your blanket. I’ll bring the belt.”
And I knew he was smiling as I heard the whoosh of the belt, pulled through the loops.
“All that worrying – just means you need to be taken care of, need some help clearing your mind. I’m going to make sure that happens today.”
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Ok, that was part him and part me. Whew.
And I still have tasks to complete this morning, which helps me keep those doubts at bay, helps me feel connected, satisfies some of my longing to serve.
Olivia 
Hmm…Good girl, Baby. It worries you that I’m so inside of you? 😉 So mine…so very mine. 🙂 But one thing, Girl, Diet Coke? After our session, you’ll go with plug still in and sore bottom to get Coke Zero! Sheesh. Diet Coke. 😉 I thought I trained you better…lol ❤️❤️
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Oh YIKES! I did know it was coke zero! 🫢. I guess to us non-soft-drink-drinkers, it’s kind of all the same. I stand corrected…
And um, yes, it might be just a tad worrisome to find you’ve hijacked my fantasies, Sir! It really was a surprise. 💜🥰 But also not surprising…
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Hi Olivia,
Too submissive? Too boring? I hope your intention for the day and the fantasy piece you wrote help clear those doubts. Your submission is truly beautiful, and beautiful to witness 😊 I love your intention “acceptance” btw and the fantasy? Hot as always!
Mine often do centre around my Sir, but other Doms creep in occasionally lol. Maybe the fantasies revolving around our own Dom is because we have the Dom we need, the ‘right’ Dom (for want of a better way to put it) who knows us well and what we need and desire. They are the ones who fulfill us?
I laughed at your Sir’s comment re the diet coke lol
Hugs
Roz
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Oh, thank you, Roz!! I always appreciate your feedback. Yes, the fantasy did make me feel better! ☺️.
Maybe you’re right about why we fantasize about our own Doms (mostly, anyhow.). I don’t need it be someone different. I like that thought.
And I know, right? Coke Zero all the way… Lol
💜
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Odd ball comment alert. Meaning I’m fairly sure I’m going to be the odd ball. I don’t actually have Ds fantasies. ( Lol no it’s not that B is THAT good). I do imagine what might happen if I’m in trouble or if B says we are going to spend some “quality time together”, but I guess I’m not much of a fantasy girl..
I have read Dd and Ds fiction over the years but the truth be told once we started our dynamic I mostly stopped all that. There have been lulls in our dynamic and during that time I have picked up Cherise Sinclair, but it didn’t spur any fantasies.
I think when I asked for this life I just didn’t want to add anyone else into it. I felt imagining someone else or even B doing something he wasn’t would lead to disappointment ultimately. Don’t get me wrong I daydream about meeting online friends and taking great trips. I imagine what our next camping trip will be like, just not Ds things.
I’m aware it works well for others to fantasize and share and have that come true. I think that’s fantastic! For me, I need it all to come from him.
I love it when I’m in tune with my body ( except days like today when it’s telling me I need a tune up). There is such a definitive power with that feeling.
As for a boring submissive, I think boring submissives are most likely boring vanillas too, so no worry for you there!
willie
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Once again, willie, that’s unexpected and super interesting. Although – as I read your comment again – I’m not really talking about fantasies that I shared and hoped would come true.
My fantasies were much more intense than anything I really want to happen in real life. I mean, they are my stories, and while some of those would be fun, others would be – whew, no. Not for real. Fantasies are for my own pleasure, not to get my Dom to do anything. If/when I share my fantasies – as I do on my blog – it might be of interest to my Dom – or not. A bit of exhibitionism when I do it here, otherwise they live in my head for times of self-pleasure.
Yes, even when it’s not pleasant, there’s something about being grounded in one’s body…
Good point, I’m not a boring person, so probably not a boring submissive either. Thanks!!
I love your comments, you know, willie!
💜
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The faceless men in your fantasies seem like place holders, Sir Jon features more, because that is who you think of in relation to being a Dom. That only makes sense to me.
Excellent post as always
I did like that little scene at the end, that mix of dominance and devotion made me smile. The phrase ” its supposed to hurt” was very evocative.
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Oh, good point, KM. Yes, They were placeholders, and I guess Sir Jon is now what I see as “Dom.” Thanks.
And thanks for the feedback, as always. I appreciate you sharing how things land with you. Nice. 😊
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