Olivia Gets Paddled

/ olivia

I was bent over the end of the bed. It is a high bed, and I am a short woman, so with my torso on the bed, my toes just touch the floor. I am naked. I have been directed to take my clothes off and fold them neatly, which I did. Now there is nothing between me and the wooden paddle, the paddle that he is tapping lightly on my ass.

Even waiting for that first sharp whack, my mind turns to the events of the day. It flashes through my mind, the way they say your life does before death.

  • Early morning, unable to sleep, knowing that i would have to tell MP about Sir Jon.
  • Having a crazy, radical idea of how to do it. 
  • Presenting the idea, seeking permission and planning with Sir Jon. 
  • Sitting with MP and telling the truth, knowing that I was hurting him. 
  • Inviting him to be a part of the dynamic between Sir and me. 

It is the light paddle tapping against my ass. He raises it, i hold my breath, and whack! The first one lands, and i gasp. It is always a shock, the sudden rush of pain. Pause – and whack. HIs pauses are timed so each one lands just as the pain from the last has started to fade. Five well aimed whacks on one cheek, and a pause.

It take me a moment to remember what i’m supposed to do. Then i say, “Thank you, Sir Xee, may i have some more?” And he begins on the other side.

I am not silent. I can’t be silent, each whack is a reminder that self-spanking is only as hard as i make it, and this is a different story. i am no longer thinking about the events of the day, only waiting for the next one. Gasps, soft moans, and cries – all are being recorded on audio for Sir Jon to enjoy later.

We did two rounds, or maybe it was three. After each set of five, i was required to thank him and ask for more. No, it was not Sir Xee who required that, it was Sir Jon who had scripted this punishment spanking for me. Sir Xee allowed me a bit of recovery time inbetween sets, reminding me to breathe, but that is so that i can take more.

And it is not over when my ass is red and burning. Sir Xee, checking the heat of my bottom and the wetness between my legs, determines when to stop and switch to the medium paddle. ”Sufficiently tenderized,” i think Sir Jon said, but i am no longer thinking well. All of me is focused on my ass, not knowing whether a quick caress or the next firm whack is coming.

Three on each side this time, and ohhhh, how that stung! A couple of times, my body bucked, my torso rising off the bed. Sir Xee waited while i settled myself, then “Breathe,” he said, not unkindly, and he began again. This bigger paddle could cover both cheeks, and after the first set of 3 on each side, he directed them to my sit spot, landing on both cheeks together. I struggled to keep my cries quiet, not wanting anyone else to hear me.

When it finally ended, i could felt welts on my ass, and, you know. I was kind of proud of them. Sir Xee shrugged them off.  “Just light welts,” he said, “They’ll be gone in a couple of hours.” Sadly, he was right.

Finished, he tucked me in his bathrobe and we adjourned to the other room and I fixed myself some tea. And added a blanket around me for more warmth. It had a been a wild day. 

After i had told MP about my relationship with Sir Jon - 

  • Witnessing his shock, dismay and pain, my own heart aching empathically with his. 
  • His acceptance of the offer, explaining that he loves me and wants me to be happy. His sadness at not being able to fully Dom me taking a back seat to his generosity with what he can offer. 
  • His recognition that even though this is terribly difficult for him, it can improve our relationship in the long run.

His acceptance led to more planning for me and Sir Jon, Sir Jon scripted a scenario, Sir Xee retrieved his own paddles, which have been locked up in his toy bag for years. And then – there i was, stripped of clothing, apologizing to Sir Xee, confessing all of the things i had done. Yes, i think i covered all of them.

He scolded me. Reasonably so.

And then – this is where you came in – i was bent over the bed, ass up, toes just barely touching the floor…

We are still figuring out the parameters on all of this. Sir Xee is still processing his own feelings and how to cope. I am bouncing between excitement and joy, then worrying that i have, perhaps, blown up my life. Although Sir Xee assures me that is not the case, that it’s just hard for him now and he will figure out how to make it be ok. 

I am overwhelmed with gratitude to be this loved – by both of my Doms. Omg, that’s right, I actually do, just like the best of romance books, have two Doms. And i have to pinch myself – is this real? Oh, wait, there were actual welts on my poor bottom. Yep, pretty sure that’s real.

If you’re judging me for having been sneaking around, I get it. I’ve judged myself a bit too. But if you’ve been reading here a long time, you know that i had good reason to think that was the only way to get my needs met. Amd Sir Xee acknowledges that.

Ultimately, however i couldn’t continue being dishonest. There was a moment when i was talking to Sir Jon, all happy and probably with a goofy look on my face. MP (as he was at the time) asked me what i was doing. And i flat out lied. That was the first time i’d done that, and it felt awful.

I know and appreciate how lucky i am that Sir Jon is open to this and is guiding me and is still my primary Dom. Lucky that Sir X responded this way. I know that it will continue to be difficult some times, and could still end poorly. And yet – I’m so happy, y’all. Happy and hopeful. Stay tuned… these are interesting times ahead.

16 thoughts on “Olivia Gets Paddled”

  2. As one of those who has “known” you for a long time (I’m guessing 2010ish was the first time I encountered one of your blogs), I had wondered about MP (Sir X) and how he was fitting into this.

    For the record, absolutely no judgment here, just happy that you are happy. You deserve happiness and having your needs met.

    Here’s to more adventures!

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    • Bookdreamer!!! SO glad to see you again. You have known me before Sir X even did. And it was Sir X, not Xee, wasnt’ it? He changed it on fetlife, i don’t know why.

      Anyhow. Thank you for the no judgement and sharing the happiness. That makes me feel so good.

      Stop by often if you like!! 💜. Don’t be a stranger…

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  3. I’d imagine your heart is much lighter now that everything is out in the open. It must have been hard for MP (Xee?) to realize you’re needs were so strong you needed to look elsewhere. Kudos to him for actually accepting a different role in your life with another Dom. I’m not sure how many men could do that . Then again, what do I know ? Lol

    I was curious about the self spanking thing. Like you before, it isn’t something that interests me. I can certainly see how it would greatly affect your submissive mindset to be told to do it, but the curiousity laid with the actual physical ‘benefit’ and the loss of control that comes with someone else deciding. I’m horrible in the sense that if B tells me how many I am on the receiving end of before hand, I somehow wrap my head around it and it isn’t AS effective as it is if I don’t know.

    Sounds like this aspect of your life will be ending up to be something magical for you. I’m sincerely happy for you. You’ve waited a long time.

    willie

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    • Thanks Willie, I agree that most men wouldn’t be open to this. He does have a lot of experience with swinger culture, so that may make a difference, plus he knows that he can’t give me this by himself. I don’t know. it may still blow up.

      Self-spanking is definitely a step up from no spanking. And maybe over time, maybe on zoom, maybe with direction, it would be almost as good as someone else. But someone else spanking has all the extras you mention for sure.

      Thanks, Willie – it really feels magical at the moment. Thanks for the support!
      💜

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  4. Ashamed to say, I hadn’t thought much about your home-life, so MP being part of this was a surprise. Even more so was him being brought into the fold by Sir and being involved in your play.
    I am of the opinion that MP would have been hurt no matter what as it’s clear he cares for you and having these emotional/sensual needs unmet was causing you to be hurt, so something needed to be done and am glad that he is now involved more directly.
    The scene itself was a beautiful one, gloriously rendered by yourself and am so glad you shared this particular tale./
    I do admit, I enjoyed the idea of you being on tip toes, when bent over the bed. Liked that idea quite a lot.
    Hoping this more honest phase of your journey brings joy to all.

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    • Oh, but you’re a new friend, KM, there’s no reason for you to have thought about my home life! And honestly, I am just about as surprised by all this as you are! If I’m following your right, i agree – he was bound to be hurt and i was hurting – for the most part he has said that he’s glad i did something and thinks this will help our relationship.
      I was a bit hesitant to share all this at first, but i”m glad I did too. This community of support is a treasure.

      And it makes me smile to think of you enjoying the idea of me on my toes in that situation. What just goes to show, I think, that submissive girls are pleased by the strangest of things!
      Thank you, KM!

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  5. Hi Olivia,

    Having read here for a while I did wonder about MP. Now that you have told him it must feel like a weight off your shoulders. Definitely no judgement here btw 😊

    The fact that Sir Zee is willing to accept another Dom in your life and be involved shows his love for you.

    This is going to be an interesting and exciting time. I’m so happy for you! Two Doms, and hey, self spanking no longer necessary?😊

    Hugs
    Roz

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    • Hey, Roz – it is definitely a weight off my shoulders! And I agree, his willlingness to do this is all about his love for me. Defiinitely interesting and exciting times ahead! So glad you’re here! (After having hung in there with me for years of the most ho-hum posts ever!)
      💜

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  6. I will post more thoroughly my thoughts on this poly arrangement. I will say here that Olivia beautifully came to me with the idea of it and was totally obedient in saying it was completely my choice. I found out a new dark kink. 😉 I like “allowing” my Olivia to be used by another Dom. I do know of other Doms who do similarly allow their Subs to play but all of those don’t want details. Too bad for them. I do and I enjoy them.

    As always, my sweet concubine Olivia, is the one who I am most pleased with in all of this. Oh, and she’ll keep self-spanking at my direction. 😉

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