A work retreat I had scheduled has given Sir Jon and me an opportunity to have time together with privacy on my end. This has been an amazing gift. Well, a gift to go with the gifts he had sent me earlier this week!
I laid out the toys as soon as I got here. Every time I glanced in that direction, I bubbled with excitement, and a touch of trepidation. I had expected them both to be rather thuddy, but when I lightly tapped myself with each, I was surprised at how much sting they carried.
I don’t intend to give you a blow by blow description (pun intended) of the evening. I do have some sense of privacy! But…
A few take-aways
- Being told to undress completely and put on the g-string can set the tone for the evening. Under those circumstances, undressing is a sensual experience.
- G-strings are slit in the front! Youall probably knew that, maybe I did too, sort of vaguely, but it was my first time experiencing it. It makes one (makes me) feel very slutty and available. (In a good way.)
- Having to pick your own spanking tool is easier when I write about it than it is in real life. By the time we got to this part, everything turned me on, and I had practically quit thinking altogether.
- I really, really love being told what to do and obeying.
- Sir is thoughtful and caring, even when he’s directing me to take a little bit more.
But the biggest take-away
- I not only like being spanked, I need it. I’ve said that before, but doubted myself. After last night, I really know how much better I feel after a spanking. It feels like settling into myself in a way that nothing else quite does. I believe that the connection with Sir, during and afterwards, is an essential part of that.
There was a point in the evening when he asked me if I wanted more. That froze me for a minute – because yes, I really did. And I just asked him, how weird is it if my answer is yes? And he let me off the hook by ordering more, and didn’t make me ask for it,which I appreciated. But how damn kinky is that? In the true sense of kinky – all twisted. But here I am.
Oh, yeah I almost forgot to say that at the end of it all, I had a most amazing orgasm, so thank you very much, Sir, for permission! It is almost definitely true that submissive girls can die from being denied that release.
I think – or you may think – I have overshared. But you know, I started blogging because it gave me a safe place to process the things I was doing and sort through my feelings. Even after all these years, that’s still the point. I’m just glad I have something to process!
Olivia 
My dear Olivia, this made me smile so much. This is so awesome and I’m so happy for you! And no, it’s not weird 🙂 there have been occasions I have wanted more.
Hugs
Roz
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I’m so glad, Roz. You have hung around for so many years of deprivation with me, I love that I have so many more good things to share now. Thanks for reassuring me that I’m not that weird too! 💜
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Mmmm….my good girl. You were so wonderfully obedient for me last night. I’m glad and grateful for you to share this. What Dom wouldn’t want to brag about such a sweet submissive as you? I loved your surprise this morning, too! 😉
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I am just sitting here blushing, Sir. I’m glad you liked what I wrote, and glad you liked the surprise too. 💜😊
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Oh my! That DOES look like a very heavy spoon. I bet someone is having trouble sitting down today… 🙂
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It is a very heavy spoon! A little lingering pain is such a good reminder
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Yes, agreed. Sometimes, when I am sitting a bit tenderly on my sore behind, I get this big smile on my face. I then realize I am smiling for all to see, and start blushing, wondering if anyone around me is noticing 🙂
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Ha, I totally get that!!
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I loved reading this, olivia. Please stop worrying about oversharing. Isn’t that what anonymous kinky blogs are for? It sounds like you got exactly what you have been needing last night! XOXO
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Good point, Nora. I guess kinky sex is good on kinky clogs. I’m probably reacting to it having been such a long time since I had anything fun to share! Thanks for the support
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I can totally understand that perspective, my friend. I want you to know that it feels reassuring to me to watch you continue on your journey with submission. It reminds me that all experiences in life are impermanent, including dry spells! XOXO
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Apparently, that’s true!! Who knew? 💜
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It’s good to share, getting more is always good
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Thanks for the encouraging words! 😊
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I am so glad you got to have time with your Sir and that many of your physical needs were addressed, even if temporarily. I envy that connection, but only wish positives for you.
You are not oversharing, this is your place and anyone here, wants to be here and are here to follow your jounrey, wherever it may take you,
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Thanks so much, KM! I appreciate your good wishes for me, and hope that you’ll have a connection that will address your needs. And I’m glad you don’t think I’m oversharing. It’s nice to have good company with me on this path. 💜
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Please, overshare, oh please! 😉😉😉
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This just made me laugh. 😊. Thanks. No worries, I will!!
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