This post, by Nora Jean at Living a Loving Life reminded me of an aspect of submission that I hadn’t been thinking about lately. She said:
“As a result I am trying very hard to approach our new dynamic with what I am calling my ‘submissive heart’, looking for opportunities to demonstrate my submissiveness to and for Frank.”
Those words made me realize that i have not been in touch with my own submissive heart – that it’s at least half-way covered with a self-protective layer of shell. It seemed to be necessary at one time, and I won’t second-guess myself from here. Maybe it is still needed.
I’ve gotten a glimpse of it lately – felt it for a moment – that opening/giving/offering part of myself.
I won’t force it.
I might have thought at one time that i needed to figure out how to speed the process, how to push myself into it. Or, in the time before that, it would have happened totally spontaneously, without thought or caution. One minute feeling the belt, the next minute feeling all desire to please and serve.
Now, i choose to trust myself. i am glad that NJ reminded me of that feeling – that softened openness – and i’m pretty sure i’ll feel that again. But today, i chose to honor my own wisdom to know when and how it will happen.
Interesting that when i google “the submissive heart,” it’s all articles about submitting to God that pop up. But when i shift to images – it’s all BDSM. Some lovely memes. (Ok, one was a God meme. But still…)
A submissive is a strong, independent, talented, capable woman in her own right, yet, she hungers to please and serve her Dominant.
When she finds the right Dominant, the submissive will wear his mark on her heart and soul. Just as she will forever be a part of His heart and soul – marked in His own way by the submissive He owns.