i feel like tiptoeing back into my blog here – into my blog? or onto? I don’t know. Either way, here i am. A little bit embarrassed cause i’ve been gone so long. i don’t know why, i have just not felt it.
i have lost all libido. Which is kinda sad – a libido’s a good thing to have, right?
Yeah. Sigh… i can’t even work up any enthusiasm for self-pleasuring.
i might have been pretty triggered by the Donald Trump crap too. So many people were, and so many people shared their own stories of having been sexually assaulted, with such bravery. But it was super triggering.
Anyhow. Some big transitions coming up in my life, and i’m excited and scared, eager and anxious.
i will have more time unscheduled and am trying to decide if i should:
- Schedule that time in new ways that are productive – for example, i could spend an hour or two a day working on my kinky novel and maybe finish it.
- Schedule that time in activities that promote self-care, on the premise it will lead to improved quality of life and eventually increased productivity.
- Don’t schedule anything and see how i feel or see what happens.
- Some ideal combination of the three that will be balanced and satisfying.
I think number 4 sounds ideal but i don’t think it’s necessarily realistic. If you have words of wisdom, by all means share them.