At night, I fall into bed, exhausted. I put my ocean waves meditation on my phone and usually fall asleep quickly. Every few days, or maybe once a week, I remind myself that orgasms are a relaxation tool too. It’s a purely mechanical release, although I do have a fantasy or two just to get … Continue reading Catching Up
Another Sunday in TCT
At some point, writing here started to feel like another obligation instead of the pleasure it usually is. I shifted my writing to my vanilla life, and that felt right. Today, I've been sitting here for a bit trying to figure out how I'm doing. I mean, I'm ok. I'm not freaking out. I'm not … Continue reading Another Sunday in TCT
Not Feeling It
“I don’t know,” she shrugged. “I’m just not feeling it. Ya know? I mean, all of the things happening, all the change, it’s just hard. I don’t even know what submissive means right now - what does it look like?” He looked at her, head tilted a bit, curious, as if he were weighing her … Continue reading Not Feeling It
Interlude
I think I published this and unpublished it right afterwards. Ooops... “Letting there be room for not knowing is the most important thing of all. When there's a big disappointment, we don't know if that's the end of the story. It may just be the beginning of a great adventure. Life is like that. We … Continue reading Interlude
Tip for the Day
Are you familiar with Brene Brown? If not, let me introduce you. She is amazing and I've been a huge fan of hers for years. She's doing a podcast called "Unlocking Us." I can't recommend it strongly enough. Edited to add: Thanks to Michael’s’ question, I’m back to add this: Brene Brown is a researcher … Continue reading Tip for the Day
Too Busy for a Title
I have not been this busy since I was in graduate school and working and raising kids. It’s not bad. It’s just a lot. Yes I'm a warrior woman... I’m doing my click list for the grocery right now. With my daughter, who’s taking her turn on the computer and talking - on speakerphone - … Continue reading Too Busy for a Title
Thought for the Day – In TCT
“What is TCT?” you ask. Clearly, it’s an acronym, not a word, at least not a word in any language I know. You won’t find it in the urban dictionary - the place I love to search for strange acronyms and inexplicable word usage. Yeah, I think I made this one up. It stands for … Continue reading Thought for the Day – In TCT
Busy Days, Busy Nights
I get up early - typically between 5 and 6 a.m. That’s when I don’t wake up TOO early - often around 2:30 or 3 a.m. But I treasure that early morning time when no one else is up yet. I was still a child when I started to get up that early. I would … Continue reading Busy Days, Busy Nights
Sending Love…
May you be happy May you be healthy May you be safe May you live in love.
The Tightrope
If I lean too far one way, I fall into the pit of despair. Ok that might be over-dramatizing a bit, but not a whole lot. In this direction lies the land of high anxiety, which for me quickly shifts to "whoopee, we're all gonna die." (To the tune of whatever-that-song-was at Woodstock. Yes, I'll … Continue reading The Tightrope
Olivia 