Busy Days, Busy Nights

I get up early – typically between 5 and 6 a.m. That’s when I don’t wake up TOO early – often around 2:30 or 3 a.m. But I treasure that early morning time when no one else is up yet. I was still a child when I started to get up that early. I would have ice cream for breakfast or, as I got older, I’d sneak a cigarette in the bathroom before anyone else was up.

These days, I often don’t get up til 6, and then the kids are up at 6:30 or, like today, up before me, lying on the floor outside the bedroom, in the dark, waiting for me to get up. The five year old. He was coughing (asthma, we think/hope) so I gave him some honey and led him back to bed, but that only bought me a few minutes of quiet before it was 6:30, when they’re both allowed to get up.

After that, the day falls into a rhythm of providing them some structure and schedule to do things, but today was a bit rocky. I am always trying to snatch time to do some work and often feeling scattered. I’m not complaining, just describing my new reality.

Once their mama gets off work, I try to do the other things that I used to have all day to do. And then relax for a bit. And I end up going to bed later than I meant to, with no way of knowing if I’ll sleep til 6 or be up at 3:30.

It will get easier. I know it will. It’s not even that it’s hard or awful right now. It’s just a big change. Demanding in new ways. And I’m tired at the end of the day.

That’s all. Lol, I don’t have a story or a nice twist to offer. I am just holding space for myself and the people in my family, for clients and occasionally a friend. I try to believe that whatever I’m doing is going to be enough.

13 thoughts on “Busy Days, Busy Nights

  1. Hi Olivia,

    I have been off work this week as, although I work for an essential service I have been told to stay home due to being at risk with a respiratory condition. Sleep is a problem for me at the best of times. I often get up for a little while in the wee hours and then go back to bed again and try and get more sleep.

    Being at home plays even more havoc with my sleep patterns and now we are about to go into lockdown tonight. I’m already starting to get a bit bored lol.

    Glad it sounds like you are hanging in there. Hope your youngest recovers quickly, and that it does prove to be minor.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    • Oh, gosh, Roz, are you able to work from home? If not, then you’ve got hours on your hands… both an opportunity and a struggle. I can imagine there would be boredom and extra trouble with sleep.

      You know, hang in there and be gentle with yourself, right? We will continue doing the same. I think the little one is going to be fine, he’s just not 100% right now. Thanks for the good wishes. 💜🌹

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  2. “6:30, when they’re both allowed to get up” ??? WHAT???

    My, but no one in my family has EVER *WANTED* to get up before noon.

    Mum was always hollering at us to get up… something about birds and worm catching.

    Ugh.

    I’m still wrapping my head around that.

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    • what? now it lets me post. ok i’m retrying.
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      6:30, when they’re both allowed to get up ??? WHAT???

      My, but no one in my family has EVER *WANTED* to get up before noon.

      Mum was always hollering at us to get up… something about birds and worm catching.

      Ugh.

      I’m still wrapping my head around that.

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    • trying again –

      My, but no one in my family has EVER WANTED to get up before noon.

      Mum was always hollering at us to get up… something about birds and worm catching.

      Ugh.

      I’m still wrapping my head around that.

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    • maybe theres a bit of text in there that it’s not allowing like a star or a quotation mark so im going to try not using any symbols at all

      i said no one in my family ever wanted to wake up before noon and mum always made a fuss hollering at us something about birds and worm catching

      so i cant get around the idea that theyre excited to wake up and have to wait till 630 when theyre allowed to

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