"Up," he said. I stood, a bit slowly, my knees protesting. He didn't rush me, just watched, sitting upright in his big chair. He let me stand a minute, just looking at me, and the urge to cover my body made me tremble. "Hands behind your back," he said. Slowly, reluctantly, I moved in response, … Continue reading Fantasy Snippet 2
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Fantasy Snippet
"Kneel," he says. I obey, lowering myself carefully. I am at his feet, his hand strokes my hair. I shiver with pleasure. "You've been a bit neglected, I think," he says. With a laugh, he adds, "You won't be neglected here. Disciplined, yes. Punished when appropriate, rewarded when you earn it. The paddle may bring … Continue reading Fantasy Snippet
Fixing the Fixer
It's about wanting to fix. About wanting to reduce the anxiety that rises up in my chest when someone I live is not ok. I can describe it a lot of different ways. I can call it co-dependency - my happiness, my ability to feel good, depends on someone else feeling good so I direct … Continue reading Fixing the Fixer
Letting It Go
I was having a lovely Sunday afternoon, for no particular reason, until a minor household crisis arose. I sprang into action and, with MP's help, devised a solution. I could have been pleased at our successful planning. We haven't implemented yet, but we know what we need to do and he's heading out to get … Continue reading Letting It Go
Just Here for the Sex
Last night, before I heard that RBG had died, I was thinking about why I needed to come back to my blog. Yes, it gives me space to write and think, but I could have started a new vanilla blog annonymously that could have done the same thing. Y'all would not have been there so … Continue reading Just Here for the Sex
Fall is coming…
Fortunately, here in the South, that means a slight dip in temperature and not the fearful freezing of the North. This year, I've decided to do a big deal about Autumn equinox though. The kids and I are going to celebrate wildly. Well, we're going to decorate a bit and have an end of summer … Continue reading Fall is coming…
Outside the Lines
It seems like I've been trying to change the way I relate to the world. I wanted to move in a straight line, putting my energy into my career vision, staying focused on my goals and objectives, and so on, blah, blah, blah. It seemed like a good idea in the beginning. It seems like … Continue reading Outside the Lines
I Was Wrong
I know. It's hard to believe. Sad but true. I. Was. Wrong. Sigh. I need my blog. I feel like I lost part of myself, like I'm walking around out of balance. I was telling Bleue, I'll have to rename it "My Sad Blog" or "The Whining Post." But that's ok. It is what it … Continue reading I Was Wrong
All Good Things…
On May 7, 2010, I wrote my first kinky blog post on my first kinky blog. It said: "This is my first post! O, my. Ok, this is a blog about me, a****. And Sir. And submission – mine; the dominance is His. But you probably already guessed that. i am just beginning to figure out … Continue reading All Good Things…
Finding My Way – Again
Over and over, we are hit by forces - emotional, physical, or spiritual - that threaten to submerge us. I felt that this weekend, so many of us suffering, whether we were in the middle of the social tsunami or watching, pacing helplessly and wringing hands, calling encouragement from the sidelines. That sounds so dramatic, … Continue reading Finding My Way – Again
Olivia 