The local munch is tomorrow night. I’m signed up to go. It’s a serious RSVP, I don’t feel like I can back out.
Wait? Back out? you say. Right.
Y’all know how introverts can be. Oh, yes! I wanna go!! Until it’s time to go, and then it’s all – ohhhh, maybe I better not… I’m not feeling great… I think it’s too soon/too late/too hot/too cold – whatever excuse we can come up so we don’t have to do the thing. I am the queen of that.
Sir X is not happy about me going alone, but I’m adamant about that. I have a semi-professional reason for going – I may have mentioned that? I want to develop a workshop on Aging and Kink – doesn’t that sound like fun? And what better way to meet aging kinksters than at a munch?
Plus, I just want to go to events. I love workshops and classes on kinky things. And play parties – even just being there. You have to be vetted at a munch to go to a play party here.
But. This munch. I don’t know what I’m going to wear – a perennial problem. I don’t need kinky clothes, just normal clothes with a flavor of submission. Ha. And I don’t know exactly where the place is – and I get lost easy. 165 people have said they’re going. That’s RIDICULOUS! Super yikes. I won’t know anybody. Have I lost my mind?
Plus I don’t even have anything to wear…
So here’s the thing. As an obliger, I’m much more likely to do something if other people expect me to do it. Sir Jon expects me to do it, but I don’t think would be particularly disappointed if I didn’t. I mean, I think he’s fine with it either way. (Of course, I probably should have asked him that instead of mind-reading… sigh. I’m sorry, Sir.)
But I would love advice, words of wisdom, and (if sincere) your anticipation of hearing about it. That way I can take y’all with me.
Olivia 
I am JEALOUS and… I admire you very much. I hope you go, olivia. New experiences breathe new life into us, even the experiences that aren’t great. At a minimum, you’ll have something new to write about. And, if all goes well… you’ll have formed new connections, had an exciting experience, and who know what else…that’s the beauty of life, we just never know what will happen. As for what to wear… keep it simple and make sure what you wear doesn’t make you so uncomfortable that you shy away from others. I have no doubt you’ve got something in your closet that you feel sexy in. Something black, show a little leg or perhaps a little cleavage. I hope you go and I can’t wait to hear about it! XOXO
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Thanks, nora! Those are some very encouraging words, and I appreciate it. You’re right – I will have something new to write about! And who knows what else…
I don’t know about having something I feel sexy in. The pandemic really put a stop to me buying new clothes, and I haven’t recovered. But surely there’s something…
I will go!! Thanks. 💜
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Let’s simplify this. Baby, you ARE going. Period. Now as to what to wear…I have some ideas. 😈😈😈
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Well, that does make it a bit easier, Sir! Thanks! 😊
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I admire your bravery in admitting your anxiety.
I too am a person who is keen to go right up until it’s time to go
Just remind yourself why you want to do this. Remind yourself why you want to do it alone
You’re a strong and capable woman who’s doing what she wants and connecting with the kink community. This has gains for you and I doubt I’m alone in thinking that you will have quite a story to relate when you’re done.
I hope you go and honestly I think you do too
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Thank you, KM. This response really helped me settle and allow my more competent self to surface. You’re right – I do have good reasons for doing this and for doing it in the way that I am. I do want to go. Thanks again! 💜
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I can so relate to the introvert aspect, however I’d want someone to come with me. Lol.
I look forward to hearing how your outing goes!
willie
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Thanks, willie! If you were here, I’d take you with me!! That would be fun! 💜
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Hi Olivia,
Well, it looks like you’re going lol. Seriously, I can totally relate to how you are feeling. Just remember, this is something you want to do, for yourself and that you have a number of reasons for going. I love your idea of getting to the point of holding workshops
At the very least you will have something to write about, but I bet it will be awesome and you will make some wonderful connections.
Looking very much forward to reading about it ☺
Hugs
Roz
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Lol, I am going. Thanks for your reminder of how capable I actually am of doing this! It is not nearly as scary as the very first munch I went to, and I managed that!
I will definitely have something to write about… thanks for the support. 💜
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Munches can be a lot of fun, especially if your area has a solid thriving community. It’s been since the mid-90’s that I have attended munches and my kink family there has become my family. Taking the first step to go can be difficult yet also very rewarding.
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John! How nice to hear your voice! I know you’re right about munches, and the community here definitely seems to be thriving. Thanks for the encouraging words!
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