Having Sir Jon in my life is a little bit like living in a whirlwind – although i have to confess, it’s a co-created whirlwind. I do my share of adding to it.
It’s as if i’ve been attending to my inner submissive needs of the last 7 or 8 years all in a few weeks. Wild. My refrain is, “but I’ve got to do my work,” with harmonies in the background, a chorus chanting “she’s got to do her work, she has so much to do…”
And yet. The work i’m doing now is required for my heart, spirit and soul. The push/pull of mundane vanilla work —- Sir Jon, passion, sex, spanking, submission and more – i mean, how could work win? Maybe if the balance had not been so far out of whack for so long.
So i’m declaring permission to make space for this. I’ve been taking space and time for it, and feeling guilty. Guilt is not my friend, not a great motivator, and i’m ready to let it go. No, that doesn’t mean i’m going to quit work and devote all my time to the world of kink. But i’m going to give myself some grace, acknowledge that this is not a distraction from real life, it is very much the work i also need to do.
I still need to find balance, but i’m just going to do what i can. It’s going to be a roller coaster, a whirlwind for. a while. That’s ok.
When one does this kind of post on Facebook, we call it Vaguebooking. I don’t know what it’s called on a blog, but i’m definitely doing it. And i’ll leave it here, head on into my day… If i owe you a response to a message, know that i’m just that far behind on things, and thinking of you.
Olivia 
Hi Olivia,
I can so relate to this. Kink is one part of who we are and of our lives. Work, family, other commitments etc. Finding that balance in all aspects of life can be so hard at times, especially were there are competing demands or an urgency in one aspect of life.
I know that has played a part in our long stretches without any dynamic.
It sounds like you are working through ways to find that balance.
Hugs
Roz
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Exactly, Roz. I am looking for balance and also recognizing that I’m trying to recover from so much imbalance in this one area. Thank you so much for your understanding! 💜
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I so understand you. The inner me wants to live kink and sex 24/7 and feels very impatient when she can not.
But there is vanilla life to live and bills to pay, and kids to raise.
It is great that you are giving yourself permission to enjoy it, designate time for it. It is big part of us and we simply need it to live fuller life
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Yes, there are so many things to do. And this part of me has been a desert for so long. Thank goodness I’m getting a chance to tend to it! Thank you, Jo
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Yours is perhaps a new definition of Sub Space 😉 Glad for you and so glad for us. ❤️
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😊. Definitely a new definition. Thank you, Sir. 💜
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Balance in life is hard to find and striving towards it is always the goal.
You can find the time for what matters to you and I can tell your submission does matter.
As always I am grateful to follow you on your journey, whenever I have the chance.
At all points stay yourself, you’re pretty awesome
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Thank you, KM. I appreciate the feedback and the kind words 😊
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Not feedback – support. 🙄. It’s late here… for me anyhow
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You’ve always been supportive of me and I’m enjoying this journey you are on. It’s a bright point in my online life.
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I’m so glad!!
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YES! I am glad you are giving yourself permission to fully embrace this time. While I agree that balance is important, is what we should strive for… sometimes there are exceptions…and this is a very beautiful (and exciting!) exception ❤
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Thanks, nora! I feel the same way about it. It’s nice to have that validation that you get it too! 💜
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