I’ve noticed that i’ve been “followed” by some Christian bloggers – lured unsuspecting by some post that i marked “spiritual, ” i suppose. i can see how it would happen, although i think they’re going to end up shocked.
But then it occurred to me that the template i’m using has all the widegets hidden, so my “warning” that this is an adult blog didn’t show. i’ve remedied that now, and have a sticky post entitled “Warning.” Hopefully, that will at least warn them!
I ran across this quote the other day:
“Yet before we can surrender ourselves we must become ourselves. For no one can give up what he does not possess.” — Thomas Merton
Thomas Merton was a Catholic monk, and i’m sure he was talking about surrendering to God, not to his Dominant. But i always think some of the same elements are there. i don’t feel the passionate need to talk about it that i once did, but i think i’m more sure of who i am now than i was then.
At the moment, i’m not feeling pulled to surrender myself, to give, in the same way i have in the past. i suspect the need is still smoldering underneath somewhere, but i’m not particularly aware of it – which is good, considering i don’t have anywhere to place it right now.
I bought the latest Maren Smith book from the Masters of the Castle series – Seducing Sandy, i think. i read it yesterday, and was a bit disappointed. It just felt flat for me. Maybe i’ve read too many of them. Maybe her style of kink – the character’s – didn’t do it for me. For whatever reason it just didn’t quite have the appeal for me that the other books in the series had.
i did mostly stay off Facebook though, so that was pretty amazing. And it wasn’t as painful as i thought it would be. Maybe i can still use it and not be so compulsive about it.
Back to work today, and of course i was awake at 3 a.m. driving myself crazy for no good reason. Sigh… That’s ok. Sleep is highly overrated.
Olivia 
Hi Olivia, great quote, hmm, I’m pondering lol. Argh, 3am. Good on you staying off Facebook 🙂
Hugs
Roz
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Thanks – would love to hear your thoughts!! 🙂
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I haven’t read the series you mentioned….is there spanking or domestic discipline?
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Oh, The Castle is a BDSM resort – you can go there on vacation and experience pretty much whatever you’ve been fantasizing about. It’s mostly BDSM lite though, so it’s pretty fun, and kind of like the Love Boat or Fantasy Island, it always has a happy/romantic ending with some kind of little twist. (Omg, Love Boat and Fantasy Island were TV shows long, long ago – unless you’re old you probably won’t have any idea what I’m talking about. Sorry.) But a lot of the staff at the Castle have DD relationships. So there’s that.
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Wow! That sounds pretty cool😊
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I have not read that series either..thanks for explaining …sounds like something I would like. I love that quote, and actually it does apply to me. My blog, finally finding me…was so named, since M kept telling me that I had to find the real me before I could totally submit to him. It has been quite a journey, getting to know the me that was so well hidden while I was busy being the ‘in charge of everything’ person.
hugs abby…Oh…sleep is positively not over rated…..hugs abby
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It is very fun and much better than 50 Shades, more realistic. Well, kind of.
I love that – of course “finally finding me” would be about you going deeper into yourself. How cool! And how wise of your Master. I think you would enjjoy the series – I loved it, except for this one, and it seems like it is mostly the level of kink that you too are at – or thereabouts Or, you know, what it seems like from your blog anyhow. 🙂
And yeah. I know – i actually love to sleep. When I can. hugs…
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