I’ve noticed that i’ve been “followed” by some Christian bloggers – lured unsuspecting by some post that i marked “spiritual, ” i suppose. i can see how it would happen, although i think they’re going to end up shocked.
But then it occurred to me that the template i’m using has all the widegets hidden, so my “warning” that this is an adult blog didn’t show. i’ve remedied that now, and have a sticky post entitled “Warning.” Hopefully, that will at least warn them!
I ran across this quote the other day:
“Yet before we can surrender ourselves we must become ourselves. For no one can give up what he does not possess.” — Thomas Merton
Thomas Merton was a Catholic monk, and i’m sure he was talking about surrendering to God, not to his Dominant. But i always think some of the same elements are there. i don’t feel the passionate need to talk about it that i once did, but i think i’m more sure of who i am now than i was then.
At the moment, i’m not feeling pulled to surrender myself, to give, in the same way i have in the past. i suspect the need is still smoldering underneath somewhere, but i’m not particularly aware of it – which is good, considering i don’t have anywhere to place it right now.
I bought the latest Maren Smith book from the Masters of the Castle series – Seducing Sandy, i think. i read it yesterday, and was a bit disappointed. It just felt flat for me. Maybe i’ve read too many of them. Maybe her style of kink – the character’s – didn’t do it for me. For whatever reason it just didn’t quite have the appeal for me that the other books in the series had.
i did mostly stay off Facebook though, so that was pretty amazing. And it wasn’t as painful as i thought it would be. Maybe i can still use it and not be so compulsive about it.
Back to work today, and of course i was awake at 3 a.m. driving myself crazy for no good reason. Sigh… That’s ok. Sleep is highly overrated.