Having started thinking about what it’s like to fuck, I find myself thinking about it more. Way back in the day, long ago and far away, Erica Jong wrote about what she called “the zipless fuck.” As I recall, without doing any actual googling, it involved sex without any commitment or ongoing attachment, maybe without … Continue reading Sex – Actual Sex
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Catching Up
At night, I fall into bed, exhausted. I put my ocean waves meditation on my phone and usually fall asleep quickly. Every few days, or maybe once a week, I remind myself that orgasms are a relaxation tool too. It’s a purely mechanical release, although I do have a fantasy or two just to get … Continue reading Catching Up
Another Sunday in TCT
At some point, writing here started to feel like another obligation instead of the pleasure it usually is. I shifted my writing to my vanilla life, and that felt right. Today, I've been sitting here for a bit trying to figure out how I'm doing. I mean, I'm ok. I'm not freaking out. I'm not … Continue reading Another Sunday in TCT
Not Feeling It
“I don’t know,” she shrugged. “I’m just not feeling it. Ya know? I mean, all of the things happening, all the change, it’s just hard. I don’t even know what submissive means right now - what does it look like?” He looked at her, head tilted a bit, curious, as if he were weighing her … Continue reading Not Feeling It
Thought for the Day – In TCT
“What is TCT?” you ask. Clearly, it’s an acronym, not a word, at least not a word in any language I know. You won’t find it in the urban dictionary - the place I love to search for strange acronyms and inexplicable word usage. Yeah, I think I made this one up. It stands for … Continue reading Thought for the Day – In TCT
Busy Days, Busy Nights
I get up early - typically between 5 and 6 a.m. That’s when I don’t wake up TOO early - often around 2:30 or 3 a.m. But I treasure that early morning time when no one else is up yet. I was still a child when I started to get up that early. I would … Continue reading Busy Days, Busy Nights
Sending Love…
May you be happy May you be healthy May you be safe May you live in love.
The Tightrope
If I lean too far one way, I fall into the pit of despair. Ok that might be over-dramatizing a bit, but not a whole lot. In this direction lies the land of high anxiety, which for me quickly shifts to "whoopee, we're all gonna die." (To the tune of whatever-that-song-was at Woodstock. Yes, I'll … Continue reading The Tightrope
Like a Drive-Through
Just sort of popping by to say "hi." I'm trying to catch up with all the things I've left undone this week. Well, maybe not all of them, but some of them. And suddenly it’s 10:00 and no blog post. So here’s my thought for the day: "Let the darkness find you if it must. … Continue reading Like a Drive-Through
We're Making It
My first five days of Home-Schooling ended quietly. It wasn't really home-schooling anyhow, more like unschooling, which is also ok. Well see what next week brings. Today we celebrated Spring Solstice even though it was a day late. My daughter, the grands, and me. We used my Himalayan meditation bells and the maraca, smudged with … Continue reading We're Making It
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