My body is tired.
I need to straighten up the house before our house cleaner comes. Not clean before she comes, but get the crap out of the way. And I don’t feel like it.
In fact, I don’t want to do anything.
I have a presentation coming up in a couple of weeks, to some people who might want to hire me, which would be a big deal. Don’t feel like working on that either.
Took the grands to school this morning – came home – sat in the car for 15 minutes before I dragged myself in. Haven’t taken my hoodie off yet, 30 minutes later.
My wrists ache, which is just silly.
Read an article about 4 ways to lower your blood pressure – ha, they were all about reducing clutter. Getting rid of sentimental things. Cleaning up stacks of newpaper. (Who still has stacks of newspaper?) I thought, fuck y’all, you just don’t want to have to clean our stuff up after we die. Too bad.
At the same time, I want to throw away all the things. So I don’t have to clean them up. Sigh.
Grumpy, grumpy, grumpy
I want people to leave me alone – and pay attention to me. That’s ridiculous.
But I appreciate the opportunity to vent or whine or whatever I’m doing over here. I guess I need to write some punishment fantasies…
Olivia 
Vent as much as you need to, Olivia! I am here to listen. I am sorry that everything is just feeling like too much right now. That is a hard place to be. Please know that I am thinking of you, and really hoping that things start to feel a bit easier soon. Much love, my dear friend ❤ XOXO
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you, Nora! It is was definitely a tough day! Thanks for al the warmth and support – and I’m sending it right back to you!💜
LikeLiked by 1 person
❤ ❤ ❤
LikeLiked by 1 person
Hi Olivia, vent away my friend, we are here to listen. I’m sorry you are in this space. Not wanting to do anything is hard. I’ve been there and for me the not doing makes me then feel worse! Take a little time to do something small but nice for you first.
I hope things feel brighter soon.
((Hugs))
Roz
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you, Roz, it does feel crappy! Eventually, I got out of the house and that helped. Thanks for the good wishes..
💜
LikeLike
Somebody needs a spanking, methinks.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Ha, I think you’re right!! 💜
LikeLiked by 1 person
Maybe David is on to something, or how about a deluxe foot massage (deluxe means both feet!). I would oblige, but I doubt either you or my wife would approve. Take care, Olivia.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Oooooh, that would be super lovely! (Lol at deluxe means both feet.) Yeah, even if I approved, I feel confident your wife would not. But thanks for the thought!
💜
LikeLike
When I’m feeling like that I get myself a whiff of something citrus . A grapefruit, an orange. Something. It helps me feel a little better. I dunno, might work for you.
And then if you want, eat it after you sniff it. *HUGS*
LikeLiked by 1 person
Oh, interesting! Like aroma therapy only you don’t have to buy a bunch of essential oils. Thanks, Fondles!! I’ll have to try that.
💜
LikeLike
Many, many hugs. i miss you, my friend ❤
LikeLiked by 1 person
I miss you too, darling. It seems like you disappeared on me. Come talk to me soon
LikeLike