7,433. That’s my average step count for the last 7 days. That makes me feel pretty good.
My days are full and the weeks fly by. We missed date night and play time last week – I was out of town and came back late-ish Friday. We plan to make up for it tonight.
Jz at A Reluctant Bitch did a post recently that brought up a memory I wanted to share. Once upon a time, many years ago, i went to an event called Winter Wickedness with my Sir at the time. There was a – not a class or a workshop – an experience, I guess, called Scarlet Sanctuary. it was one of the loveliest experiences i’ve had. Here’s what i wrote about it back then.
i began to think about the Scarlet Sanctuary at bdsm camp. i didn’t tell you all about that yet, and really, i could never do it justice anyhow.
Picture a darkened room, parts of it screened off. There is music, soft, kind of new-age, flutes and drums maybe. We’re greeted at the door by a soft-spoken man who asks about a few preferences – and do we want to experience this as a couple? Yes, we do, and he takes us each by a hand and leads us behind the screens. Two women join us, they undress Sir, the man undresses me. It is very sensual and gentle.
Sir and i lie side by side on the massage tables, our hands touching. Our breathing is slow and rhythmic. The man and the two women begin to touch us.
Energy flows from them to us, through their fingertips into my skin. Tingling warmth and heat, sensual, and yes, sexual, in a soulful way. Like Mother Earth and mountains are sexy, like the sun warming naked flesh, like love is sexy. That’s what the energy is, of course, it’s love. It’s love and it’s God and God is love and energy and alive in each of us. And when that connection happens, and the energy flows, i feel God inside me, alive and powerful.
As i walked tonight, i called on that memory, and remembering makes my palms tingle now, makes me feel warm and safe and at peace. The energy nurtures me in my submission, and it nurtures me at work. It makes me grateful.
I ended with this:
What about you? Is there a spiritual aspect to your experience of BDSM?
I do miss that and am trying to be open to ways i can find that again.