I’ve spent part of the morning planning the rest of the month and next quarter. I’ve started using a paper and pen planner, something I haven’t done since I had a “Daytimer” in my pre-computer days. i bought myself some fancy gel pens and have color coded my life, which is something i’ve never done before.
I’m using the Dragontree Rituals for Living Dreambook and Planner which i really like. I’m not using it as fully as i could, but i think i’ll grow into using more aspects of it. And if i don’t, that’s probably ok too.
But i’ve been listening to this – Sacred Spirit Drums with David and Steve Gordon – which i really like.
As i listen, i begin to breathe more deeply, more slowly.
i had put some tasks on my calendar for today, thinking that i’d feel better if i got them done now rather than waiting until Monday when i have all kinds of new things beginning. But i notice that when i think about doing them, my body hunches over and my chest gets tight, my stomach feels weird.
I remind myself that i don’t have to do those things today. I can if it will make me feel better. But they aren’t due today. I’m not obligated to do them. It’s Sunday. I’m off work. i can spend my day taking care of myself if that feels like what i need to do.
It’s ok. The stuff will get done. And even if i decide to do it later today, i don’t have to be all tense and miserable right now. Right now, just doing what i’m doing is enough. And – let’s go for the big cliche – i am enough.