It is a strange thing, being submissive. Yesterday, I got it in my head that my Sir wasn’t interested in a power exchange with me anymore. It started with a thought. “Hmmm, I didn’t do this one thing I’m supposed to do and he didn’t notice.” Then I started building a whole story about it. … Continue reading On Being Submissive
Relationships
All the Rules
I have rules. I started to say ‘lots of rules,’ but I don’t know what ‘lots’ means to you. I know it is a lot of rules for me. Not just random rules either. Not rules designed so that I’ll inevitably break them and get punished. These rules are for my own good. Seriously. My … Continue reading All the Rules
Today’s Lesson
This is a lesson for me, not intended to apply to anyone else. Although if it does apply to you. that's lovely. Last night was playtime here in the Land of olivia and Sir X. There was more exploration, more spanking, and even orgasms. It was another wonderful sense of letting go of my regular … Continue reading Today’s Lesson
Shadows
Being a fan of Jung and Jungian psychology, I believe that we all have a shadow side - that part of ourselves that we keep hidden. Often, people try to hide their shadow from themselves. "Oh, I'm. not that kind of person, I'd never do that..." No matter what "that" is, there are things we'd like to think … Continue reading Shadows
Shopping
We went shopping yesterday, Sir and I. Practically speaking, this involved us chatting, me taking pictures of items for him to consider and select from. Thongs, y'all. That what we went shopping for. I had none - as I mentioned before, had never tried them. But I got one pair, at his request, and wore them for him. They were … Continue reading Shopping
Thoughts on Submission
One of the comments on my poem yesterday was from David, over at Dispatches from Dystopia. David and I have known each other a long time and have seen each other go through all kinds of changes over the years. His comment really hit home with me. He said: "This is a proclamation that passion … Continue reading Thoughts on Submission
The Clueless Dom
{There is a new installment to Thoughts in April up, you can read it here. I just needed to share this. And I have several more coming, so stay tuned.} It's not the first time it's happened. Some man wanders onto a site, reads a little bit about D/s, and thinks, "Oh, I must be … Continue reading The Clueless Dom
Not So Old After All
Apparently, 62 is not too old to feel the tingles and the heat, just from his words. We went out for dinner last night, and as we talked, i could feel myself coming alive. Lol, i wrote that and then imagined youall going, "We know, you already told us, coming alive, tingly, yada, yada, yada, … Continue reading Not So Old After All
Yikes
Remember when y'all encouraged me to ask for my toys back? Yeah. So I did that. And then it set off a reaction, a chain reaction, and suddenly - like a kaleidoscope - things are different. With a quick turn of the wheel, from this: to this Just … Continue reading Yikes
On the Occasion of…
...my 62nd birthday, it seems like the appropriate time to celebrate and count some blessings. I may have some health issues, but I feel pretty good most of the time. I have a job I mostly like that pays well. I have enough of all the material things in my life - and more. Much … Continue reading On the Occasion of…
Olivia 