Winter Solstice 2019

Winter Solstice, when the day is shortest, the night is long and often cold.

I found this lovely article 13 Fascinating Winter Solstice Traditions Around the World. It’s pretty interesting. But the Winter Solstice tradition – or ritual – that I am most drawn to is the one that involves writing down the things you want to leave behind – resentments, unhelpful habits, and so on – and burning them in a big bonfire.

This year, I actually know somebody who’s hosting this kind of party at her home. She invited me, and I almost accepted, but my daughter is going, and they are good friends, and I would have needed to go with my daughter and the grands, and somehow, that doesn’t appeal to me in the same way that going to a similar ceremony on my own would.

Funny, isn’t it? I was telling myself that if I went, it would not be the same experience for my daughter. She’s looking forward to the ritual and I thought, if I were there, it wouldn’t be the same for her. And that might or might not be true. But at the heart of it, it is my own need driving me. I don’t want to be there as my daughter’s mom, my grands’ grandmother. But my initial instinct was not to own that for myself. I automatically wanted it to be this “thoughtful of others” thing.

Nope. It’s maybe a little bit about her, but mostly about me. And there’s nothing wrong with that.

But I feel (for the millionth time) the call to be more in touch with my own goddess energy. I think I’m going to try to take these dance classes – it’s called 5Rhythms. Some one offers them near me. They’re affordable. I will have to clear the time for it, I’ve been seeing clients at that time. But I think I could move that client to a different time or day and it would be fine.

Speaking of work, I did not get that one job I interviewed about, for the very good reason that I was not qualified for it!! Lol, I needed to have had expertise in this one thing that is actually a weakness for me, so clearly, that was not a good fit. It was also not a good fit in other ways, although the stability and the income would have been nice. So I was disappointed and relieved in the same heart beat.

Yes, I could have learned the thing I wasn’t expert in, but I don’t want to. And I think it makes more sense to look for a job that will be a better fit and get back to serious work building my business.

So Christmas is coming, New Year’s is right behind it, and now is the time for family, giving and receiving, love and joy. Doesn’t matter what you celebrate, those are the most important things.

May the Solstice and Turning of the Wheel bring you Love, Peace, and Good Fortune in the Coming Year. Welcome the Returning Sun with Joy.

8 thoughts on “Winter Solstice 2019

    • Have read this a couple of times – sounds like you saying that you don’t usually want to do things (experience things) just for yourself, that you’re doing things for other people, is that right? But I also thought it might mean that you just don’t have a lot of desire to experience things. But you’re right, your sobriety is really for you… πŸ’œ

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      • I dunno. I do a lot of stuff for “me”, swim, blog. My children are on their own. Do I stay married for the sake of appearances? No I love J, despite the sexual denial. As I said I dunno.

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  1. Interesting traditions, I hadn’t really thought about winter solstice traditions. Right now I’m just glad it’s summer here πŸ™‚

    The dance classes sounds interesting. I hope you manage to make it work. Sorry to hear the job wasn’t a good fit. I get feeling disappointed and relieved at the same time.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    • I bet you are glad it’s summer!! I’m looking forward to summer solstice too!! 😊 Without, you know, trying to wish my life away either.

      Yeah, I think the dance class will be interesting -we’ll see. Thanks for “getting it” when it comes to my ambivalence about not getting the job. I guess money and stability are not really great reasons to do something if they’re the only attraction, at least not if there are other things that would be a better fit. Anyhow, we’ll see where the road takes me next… πŸ’œ

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  2. I completely understand what you mean. When we ‘wear many hats’ there is a time when we need to be naked. Hats automatically go on in the presence of those we nurture, and it is difficult to nurture ourselves in that environment.

    Happiest of holidays to you and nothing but the best in the new decade.

    willie

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