I am going home today, and ready to be there, I think. These few days on retreat, i’ve tried not to get too attached to outcome. So i haven’t been born again or made new while i was here, and that’s ok too.
i think it’s been a “Middle Way” kind of retreat. Some meditation, some relaxation, some exercise. Reading for fun. Just sitting. And i avoided the trap of telling myself, “Oh, this is great, i need to do more of this.” i just did however much i did.
i saw deer up close, from my window, but still really close. And river dolphins.
i took my time doing the things i did. By last night, i was slowed down enough to just sit on the back porch for a while.
I might have lost weight, i might have gained weight, who knows… i haven’t been near a scale since Tuesday. My step average was 6,800 though, which pleases me. And i even did some aerobic exercise (dancing.) So that’s cool.
Dancing was one of my original goals for FFF, so maybe i’ll be able to reengage with that. Or maybe not. Whatever, it was fun this week.
And i have a cold and feel a little bit worse today. Sigh. In fact, i’m going to lie back down for a little bit now .