Where does all that feeling even come from? All that serving and pleasing stuff. I’m mad at myself for even feeling that way – I didn’t even quite know all that was there {still there} until i wrote it. Fuck.
My energy does not need to be spent on cock worship and fucking. OG is not going to be my Dom, or my lover, He’s a nice man who offered to spank my ass because i need that. That’s what i need to be saying to myself four times. Slowly. With feeling.
On the other hand, {sigh} there’s no point in berating myself for having the feelings i have. They are just there. And this is the best place to let them be.
Olivia 
There is, inside of me, that primal story going on. The ordinary becomes extraordinary, a touch is more than a touch. It is power demonstrated over the one surrendered. It is hot, attenuated feeling that begs completion. It is a game and a drama, but more than those, it is life itself. I hear your voice cry out.
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That’s such an empathic comment. Thank you so much.
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You inspire me to open up some more, to say more than what I think I can safely say, lest Mr Respectability outs himself. You are, in your way, a Warrior.
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That makes me happy.
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