It was Sir X's birthday yesterday, so we had a special script from Sir Jon. Yes, it was a birthday spanking, only I "took the spanking for him." Sir X is 71. That's a lot of spanks. But the first 36 were with the flogger, and of course, I love that. 35 more with the big paddle - oof! That … Continue reading The Third Wednesday
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Shadows
Being a fan of Jung and Jungian psychology, I believe that we all have a shadow side - that part of ourselves that we keep hidden. Often, people try to hide their shadow from themselves. "Oh, I'm. not that kind of person, I'd never do that..." No matter what "that" is, there are things we'd like to think … Continue reading Shadows
Rebooting Today
I started a post this morning that ending up leading me down a logical path with an end point I didn't like. I need to pursue that some other time maybe, but not today. So instead, I need to take a different path. As a teacher of Mindful Self Compassion, I have developed a habit of putting … Continue reading Rebooting Today
In my Vanilla World…
I hardly ever know what I'm going to write about until I start. I might have thought I would write about the lovely session Sir and I had last night and how I still can feel the effects today sitting here. Not just sitting a bit carefully, but you know, the glow is lingering too. So I'll … Continue reading In my Vanilla World…
Intentions, Fantasy, and Acceptance
It's funny - at least I guess it's funny - that when I start to write a fantasy now, it is always Sir Jon's face, his voice, his preferences that show up for me. Not haha funny of course. But not odd-funny either, because of course he shows up when I think about being Dom'ed, being used, … Continue reading Intentions, Fantasy, and Acceptance
The Joy of Pain?
I talked about the joy of spanking yesterday. Today... let's take it to a different level. Not better or worse, just different. Of course, there is some pain with spanking - the most erotic spanking will sting or burn - that sensation is what we want. The rush - the brain chemistry at work - mmmmm. But there … Continue reading The Joy of Pain?
The Joy of Spankings…
I may have mentioned before that I love spankings - getting, not giving, of course. So I've been thinking about my history of getting spanked, mentally reviewing all the experiences I've had since I began living kinky back in 2010. By 2013, I had settled in with MP, although he was Sir X back then, and moved … Continue reading The Joy of Spankings…
The 2nd Wednesday
Yesterday was Wednesday. The second time that Sir X followed a script devised by Sir Jon and spanked me, live and in person. This time the script involved the flogger, a belt, and a heavy strap. Sir Jon is experimenting with finding the line between pleasure and pain for me. Sir X is really embracing this poly arrangement, … Continue reading The 2nd Wednesday
Not Rushing Through
I wanted to post quickly, practically a drive through post. But you know, fast food is not really my style. Seriously, I don't even eat McDonald's. So I won't rush through this either. Just a moment of stillness instead, turning inward... In the silence, thoughts bubble up... Nora's post on The Animal Within Me which invites us to consider what … Continue reading Not Rushing Through
Her Heart
She is kneeling, naked, of course. Wearing the collar, not the day collar, which is light and pretty and almost looks like any necklace, but the training collar, which is metal and heavy. There are three rings set into the collar, often one or more attached to a leash or to a set point - the bed, … Continue reading Her Heart
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