In a comment on my last post, Helen of Ten Shades and Me offered that she doesn't like the word slut. She noted that it's overused, almost banal, and not creative at all. I can't argue with that. At the same time, it doesn't affect me that way. In the Meriam Webster dictionary, slut is … Continue reading What about Slut?
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More about Spanking
I've been thinking about the changes in myself this time around with Sir X. I like to think of myself as a gentle, easy-going person, kind and non-judgemental. And in some ways, I think that's accurate. However... I can also be opinionated, stubborn, rigid, and difficult. I know - shocking, right? I think that in … Continue reading More about Spanking
Spank-o-rama
That's what Sir is calling our Wednesday maintenance sessions now. A Spank-o-roma. And it was. He thought 68 was too high a number of strokes, so he took it down to 34. 34 with the thin paddle, 34 with the medium paddle, 34 with the heavy paddle, and 34 with the leather strap. Yikes. Ok, … Continue reading Spank-o-rama
Settling
Today, I meditated. I saw clients. I went for a long walk. I cooked - sautéed shrimp and portabella mushrooms, fresh zucchini, squash, and cherry tomatoes. Sir reassigned me the task I didn’t do. This time, I am to do it every other day for 10 days, and report back to him each time. I … Continue reading Settling
Today’s Lesson
This is a lesson for me, not intended to apply to anyone else. Although if it does apply to you. that's lovely. Last night was playtime here in the Land of olivia and Sir X. There was more exploration, more spanking, and even orgasms. It was another wonderful sense of letting go of my regular … Continue reading Today’s Lesson
I Won’t Break My Streak
I have a streak going - today is the 80th day in a row that I've posted on my blog. I don't want to break my streak, but I'm also kind of taking the day off. This was the first morning in a long time that I didn't start my morning with doing Olivia things. … Continue reading I Won’t Break My Streak
Reclaiming Self
Being submissive to Sir Jon was a lot like living in the amusement park. There were lulls in the excitement, it wasn't always riding the rides, but there were games to play and prizes to win, treats to enjoy - a full array of good times, pretty much all the time. He didn't have to … Continue reading Reclaiming Self
Sub Space/Sub Drop
Youall know how it works... we've talked about it before. There is nothing much I can say that hasn't already been said. It's a roller coaster. Photo by Dana Sredojevic on Pexels.com But I'm not poised on the edge at the top there. Instead, it feels like I've already dropped, and the ride is over. … Continue reading Sub Space/Sub Drop
Celebrating in Real Life
I could do my usual fussing about Valentine's Day. It's not my favorite holiday. It's a Hallmark holiday - one of many - that pressures us to spend money and makes us feel bad if we don't have a romantic other or don't get the right recognition of the day. But this year - with Sir X … Continue reading Celebrating in Real Life
Prelude Part 5
Amelia felt overwhelmed. Too many people, too much going on. She had begun to feel safe with Josh, but all these people stopping to talk to him, and the undercurrents of conversation that she didn't understand, it all made her anxious. She was trying to smile but her lips felt cold and stiff. If only Sara had been here, … Continue reading Prelude Part 5
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