I’m making a new committment to my health!
Yes, I’m pretty sure I did this last year, right about the same time of year too. I know it was around November because when I invited other people to do it too, they were like, ”Um, it’s the holidays. No, maybe in January.” Which was a good point.
And I did it at some time in 2018… and again in 2019… and then just a few months ago with Noom. Sigh…
At some point when I was doing FFF with Fondles, someone actually commented that they didn’t know why I was torturing myself reporting in every week when nothing was really changing. (Maybe not exactly in those words.) But, lol, he was absolutely right. Lots of angst for nothing.
And yet. Here I am again.
But wait, you say. What about Noom? You were all about Noom, just a few months ago. Mmmhmm. That’s correct. I liked Noom because you got approval when you did well. And that motivated me for quite a while – you know, the “good girl” thing. Here’s the problem.
I didn’t actually know any of the Noom people. And I didn’t really feel connected with them. Sure they were always trying to tell me that whatever I was doing was ok, but I knew that was a motivational interviewing tactic and I knew that binge eating pretzels or Pepperidge Farm Chocolate Chunk cookies was not good and didn’t lead to good health.
Soooo. After a while…
I started not logging all my food. I logged the three healthy meals/day and a couple of healthy snacks. But those extras – the onion dip or ice cream bars – I just omitted those.
And I quit doing the lessons, because I didn’t like doing them on my phone. And I didn’t want to think about it anymore. Yep.
And I quit paying attention to my steps because their app wouldn’t link correctly to my fitbit so the count wasn’t accurate unless I did a manual update on the Health app which would link with them and let me update and… I just lost interest. Plus I wasn’t walking that much. Sigh. Are you bored yet?
I have two or three new insights and resources.
One – this doctor shit is getting real. I have skated though life like the rules didn’t apply to me. NOW is the time to acknowledge that they do. If I don’t get it together now, I am going to end up with who-knows what health issues and spending way more time in medical facilities than I want to. I need to quit acting like that’s not a thing that applies to me.
Two – I was trying to figure out what I would lose (other than pounds and inches) if I got healthy. Ate healthy, did healthy exercise, all that. What would be bad about that? Well. I secretly believe that the kind of people who do all that healthy stuff are sanctimonious (like doctors) and mean. I certainly don’t want to be that person!! But I’ve decided I can get healthy and I don’t have to become like that. I can still be the same cool person who used to scoff at seat belts (true story) and smoke cigarettes.
Three – look at this!! I bought a rebounder. Yes, it’s a mini trampoline. With a handle to hold on to. Ok, I won’t be jumping like the person in the picture, and I’m pretty sure I can’t do splits. But still. It’s arriving next week!!! I am super excited.
So I’ll be doing posts on bouncing. Rebounding. Whatever. And maybe have some other adventures. And probably talk about my unnatural reluctance to do things that are good for me. And some kinky stuff too.