FFF 2.0 – 1-25-19

And things are better.

It is clear that I can only do a few goals at a time. And that’s ok. Or it’s just how it is. If I focus on the goals I didn’t meet this time, then the goals I did meet become unmet. If that makes sense.

Steps are up. I’ve really put some focus and energy there, using my 10 minute video walks and actually getting outside and walking.

  • Average = 6,492
  • High = 10,857

I quit doing yoga – I was supposed to be doing a 30-day challenge with a small group of friends. The video series was supposed to be all levels, but was way too advanced for me. On the yoga spectrum, I am closer to chair yoga than I am to yoga involving planks and side planks. I didn’t even know planks were a thing in yoga! I told myself I would find a simpler version, but I didn’t do it this week. The good news is, I can now say I’ve actually done yoga. The bad news, of course, is that it wasn’t a very good experience.

I did better with my meditation challenge, and am still in the running to succeed with that!

I’ve quit drinking alcohol – not that I was a big drinker, but I almost always had a glass of wine, sometimes two, with dinner. So I haven’t been drinking for a couple of weeks, and you might think that would promote weight loss, but no. Not so far. I’m still at 160. So there’s that.

And it also hasn’t promoted better sleep. I’m averaging about 6 hours/night, which is not really enough, but it’s mostly because I’ve been waking up too early. Not like 2 am too early but maybe an hour before I have to actually get up.

Finally, I’ve applied for a job. Not full-time, part-time with flexible hours, which would be ideal. It’s a coaching job, so that’s cool. I applied, had a first interview (which was a videotape of me answering three questions) and am waiting to hear back. I think it would be a great move at this point. I’d enjoy it and it would give me a bit of financial security while I work on building my own practice, so keep your fingers crossed. I should hear something within the next few days.

Now I think I’ll go snooze for a bit…

FFF 2.0 – 1-18-19

You can call me Just-A-Bit-Grumpy today – a little out of sorts for who knows what reason. But it comes and goes (like waves in the ocean.) One minute I’m feeling all growly and the next I think all smiles and everything’s lovely. Shrug. Whate -ev-er.

My step count average this week = 5,059. My weight is still hovering around 160. My life is still not organized (this should not be a shock to anyone.)

I only got about 4 1/2 hours sleep last night, so I’m a bit groggy too. Going to try to take a nap in a few minutes.

I was going to add some quotes from Mary Oliver, since she died yesterday, but I’m too sleepy. Back later…


FFF 2.0 – 1-11

Reporting in, SIR! Or ma’am. With a salute.

  • Step count: 4,890 average
  • Weight: 160
  • Yoga challenge: Practiced 5 days out of 7
  • Mindfulness challenge: 5 days out of 5
  • Writing: 0 words

It is what it is… I just keep inching forward, and sliding back, over and over and over. One step forward and two steps back. AND I had no idea there was a song called that. Here it is.


Or Bruce Springstein with One Step Up (and two steps back.)

So I’m not doing all the things as well as I wanted to. But the sun is shining and life is good – hope it is for you too…


In 2019…

In 2019, I want to continue my journey toward being a crone.

Woman with purple hair streaming back from her face, gold background.
A Crone has earned that title!
She offers sage advice & tested wisdom; She is secure in her skin, soul, and self.  She shares her knowledge freely.  She is beautiful. She is trustworthy.  She is my friend.  I adore her and rely on her.

Except for the part about being adored. That would feel weird, at best.

Group of women in diverse bright colors gathered around a fire, seated and bending forward.

But I need a circle of support, I need to be part of a group.

And I am building that. I have y’all here, and you are close to my heart. I’m making friends and circles of support with the other people in my coach training program. But I want something more. Maybe I need to find a wiccan circle?

I’m going to a WordPress meet-up later this month, and that should be interesting. Also, they can (maybe) teach me how to make the alt text for images work. Currently I just put it at the bottom of the post (see below.)

Anyhow. Who do you connect with most deeply? Do you have a group of people who know each other that you rely on? Individual friends that each connect to you, like spokes on a wheel? One or two friends and your partner/spouse? What is your world like?


Image description: 1. Woman with purple hair streaming back from her face, gold background.
“A Crone has earned that title! She offers sage advice & tested wisdom; She is secure in her skin, soul, and self. She shares her knowledge freely. She is beautiful. She is trustworthy. She is my friend. I adore her and rely on her.”

2. Group of 5 women in diverse bright colors gathered around a fire, seated and bending forward.

FFF 1-4-19 – First of the New Year!

Here we go – let the good times begin! My new year is off to an auspicous beginning.

First of all, steps. My average for the week is – drum roll – 7,013!! My goal has been 7,000 for a long time, but I think this is the first time I’ve actually hit it. My high was 10,566 on January 1, which was a beach day. My low was 4,067 yesterday, when I spent 12 hours hunched over my computer.

I started a 30-Day Yoga challenge and have completed the first two days. One of the women who’s in my coaching program started a group for us, and I got my daughter to agree to do it with me. If you didn’t know me, you might think I was real into yoga, because I’m quick to talk about the benefits – but not from experience. This is the first time I’ve actually done yoga. So far so good…

But this is NOT me:

In other news, I’m also doing a mindfulness challenge that another friend invited me to. It starts on the 7th and I think it’s going to be something I can do. We’ll see.

I’m not setting goals anymore. I’m going with intentions instead. I know, that’s become a buzzword, and maybe it’s silly, but it seems to be working better for me. I’ve begun to start my day with the Prayer to the Six Directions, which I’ve been thinking about for a while. There are lots of versions of it, but the one I’m using goes like this:

Prayer to the Six Directions

Oh Spirit of the East, Land of the rising Sun, Of Air, the winds that blow across the lands. Of new beginnings each day. and of open horizons. We bless you and ask for your wisdom and blessing here with us today. Please join us, Spirit of the East.
Oh Spirit of the South, Place of Passion, Fire and Creation and inspiration, whose warm breath reminds us of summer days. Ignite our hearts with love. We bless you and ask for your wisdom and blessing here with us today. Please join us, Spirit of the South.
Oh Spirit of the West, the land of the setting Sun, Of water and Autumn’s whisper. Bless us with the knowledge of peace which follows the harvest of a fruitful life. We bless you and ask for your wisdom and blessing here today. Please join us, Spirit of the West.
Oh Spirit of the North, place of quiet, stillness, of cave and deep earth. Place of thankfulness for the knowledge and blessings that have come to us with time. We bless you and ask your wisdom and blessing here today. Please join us, Spirit of the North.
Oh Spirit of Mother Earth, you support us each day, welcoming our roots deep into your heart. You nurture and guide us finding sustenance and support. help us to give thanks Always for Your bounty. We bless you and ask for your wisdom and blessing here today. Please join us Spirit of Mother Earth.
Oh Spirit of Father Sky, of the angelic realms, the countless stars of the night remind us that you are vast beautiful and majestic beyond all of our knowing or understanding. Your light shines upon the earth both day and night guiding our steps. We bless you and ask for your wisdom and blessing here today. Please join us, Father Sky.
Oh Spirit of our souls within, Place of union, love and reverence. We are grateful for this gift of life and for the love that guides our way. We open our hearts and join with all in love. It is begun.

I turn in each direction as I pray (I used the compass on my phone to find the direction!) I touch the ground for Mother Earth, raise my arms for Father Sky, and put my hand on my heart for the “souls within” part. We have a big privacy fence in our backyard, so when it’s warm, I go outside to do it.

I haven’t done it every day since I started, but I’m ok with that. It’s not a goal I’ve failed to meet, it’s just a plan that doesn’t necessarily work out every day. We’ll see how this goes…

I’ve done Qi-gong a few days too. I use this video: https://youtu.be/cwlvTcWR3Gs and am really liking it. Let me know what you think if you try it!

Ok, so Happy New Year to all of you – ready for another exciting year that may bring who-knows-what!

“Letting there be room for not knowing is the most important thing of all. When there’s a big disappointment, we don’t know if that’s the end of the story. It may just be the beginning of a great adventure. Life is like that. We don’t know anything. We call something bad; we call it good. But really we just don’t know.”
— Pema Chödrön, When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times