So if my work issues are kind of becoming resolved - which they might be - and if i can take advantage of the opportunity to work through my issues - even knowing that the organization is also fucked up - rather than leaving, then only about 2/3rds of my life is still out of synch … Continue reading Only Two-Thirds
Feeling all kinds of self-pity tonight, and this song says it all... (lyrics at the bottom, in case you can't play it.) i've been watching webinars - 5 in the last few days, but who's counting? Anyhow. The last two i watched went together, in an unplanned synchronicity of the universe. And here's what … Continue reading Sadness
Omg, y'all, i am just now realizing that my job has been - the people at the job i have - some of the people at my job - have been interacting with me in a way that triggers deep shame for me. This insight came to me in the middle of the night and kept … Continue reading Lurching from one foolishness to the next
My life is in flux. Fluid, unstable, vacillating. My relationship, my job, my plans for the future seem to be continuously changing. Maybe that's always the case and we just don't realize it? i feel like i have been living from my head, trying to stay on the path, even when the path has been … Continue reading Beyond the Mundane
Not to be confused with dancing circles, which might be something like this: dancing in circles is more like this: We have just danced back through the dance we do - MP/ Sir - just danced through our steps again. The next step for me is to feel anger and despair. Only - i'm not … Continue reading Dancing in Circles
i've gone public again. If it looks like we'll be involving someone else in our relationship, i'll probably make the blog private again, but who knows if/when that might be. In the meantime - Hi!!
We were supposed to have dinner with our potential person, but he canceled, explaining that he's had some family issues come up and isn't going to have time for other activities for a while. i am pretty generally ok with that, but wonder what's going to happen with Sir and me. Also, i've had to … Continue reading Nope