i am still here – doing house things. Downsizing my stuff. Pushing us forward on the path of getting ready to sell the house. No exciting developments from fetlife – or real life, for that matter. And that’s ok. i’m in a phase of transition anyhow.
Still not losing weight, not working on my book, and not writing faithfully here every day.
“[I]t’s the child writer who has figured out, early on, that writing is about saving your soul.”
— Betsy Lerner, The Forest for the Trees
i could barely write when i started writing., and writing has saved my soul many times.
i am doing a bit better with mindfulness practice, but incrementally better, not in a way that feels life altering. Still better at preaching than practicing.
Sigh. It’s ok. i’m ok. If i still have this fantasy that a Dom could push my boundaries, could help me fly a little higher, i recognize that it’s not likely. Even when we find a Dom for me (and notice that i say “when,” not “if,”) but even then i don’t think he’ll serve that purpose. (Oooh, notice the “serve” part – so really i just want a Dom for my own purposes? Yeah, maybe. No, that’s not really accurate, you know, it’s that mutuality that makes it work.)
Anyhow. i read some new books this weekend, and i have some thoughts about my most recent conversations with Burford to write about, so i imagine i’ll be around this week. Here’s a quote to take with you.
“Your genuine happiness does not come from other people, activities or things, it comes from living a meaningful life – a life that is in alignment with your values and is beneficial.”
― John Bruna