And as soon as i thought that – because i really am still out of sorts, and trying to ride it out – i decided to google images for it. That was actually helpful. First, i found this:
…which is exactly right. That’s how i feel. Not every minute of the day, but a lot of minutes. And i’m trying not to fight it, but to let it roll through and away in its own time. It’s ok to feel this way, at least some of the time. i think.
Then i discovered there’s a book called Out of Sorts. Maybe i should read it? Do any of you know it?
And that’s right too. A LOT of the time i feel like i have it pretty well sorted out. Right now, i don’t.
i think about what jade said – that i’m not getting enough introvert time, enough down time, time to just be, and i think she’s right about that. i don’t see anything i can do about it right now, but still, it’s good to keep that in mind.
Then i found this:
…which made me laugh. i love Winnie the Pooh. But then i thought about the things that monkey said, and thought about how very little self-care i’m doing. Which of course, ties in with what jade was saying. And the only way that will change is – if i frigging change it. If i start doing all those things i’ve not been doing.
And finally, i saw this:
So beautiful, isn’t it? And a reminder for me, it really is ok to feel this way for now, and i need to do something different unless i want to feel this way for a really long time, right? And i don’t need to do all the things, just some of the things.
My daughter and grandkids will be here tomorrow, and i will be swept up in a big ole rush of good times and love and chaos and joy. It’ll be great – even better, probably, if i go finish getting things ready now.
And just as i was getting ready to end this post, i flipped to FB and found this:
And somehow, that feels right. Now let me go finish child-proofing the spare bedroom.