i wake up early. i lie there for a minute, trying to remember what's different today. Then it comes to me - oh. Yes. Oh. I want to go to the bathroom, but i can barely get out of bed. One ankle and one wrist are attached to the bed. i could untie myself, theoretically, but … Continue reading Goals – the next day
Shygirl wrote a lovely post about being sleepy - you may want to read it here, because she says it so well. All i could think was, "Oh! Me too!!" i don't know why i'm so tired - i'm even waking up kind of tired, even when i get up at my normal time. i … Continue reading Too Tired
"How much did you get done today?" His voice is gentle, not demanding at all, but i cringe. "Um, i did the dishes and laundry and made the bed, and i even straightened up part of the utility room." Despite myself, my voice goes up in question at the end of that sentence. Is that … Continue reading Goals?
"On your knees," he says. i do it quickly. There has been talk lately of a training school, an idea that alternately excites and terrifies me - or maybe that's the same thing. But the thought inspires me to quick obedience. Besides, i love to kneel at his feet. He is naked under his robe, … Continue reading On your knees
i was wondering today when and how i began to think of myself as unfocused and disorganized. No, wait, that's not quite right, but i began to think of myself as "not focused enough," and "not organized enough." i think that i've been missing the point. i can be super focused and super organized ~ when … Continue reading Thinking…
"Here." He snaps his fingers and points to the floor at his feet. "Crawl," he says, with a hint of a smile. i hesitate - just for a moment - but crawl? Alan and Mindy are here! It's bad enough that i'm naked, and the only one naked. Although, Mindy is barely dressed. Still, a … Continue reading Here
i went for a walk yesterday, and the day before, which was really nice. There's a park not too far away - ok, i have to drive to it - but it's really nice. And i played some music. This: (Sacred Spirit Drums; David and Steve Gordon) And this: (Squeeze Box; The Who) And … Continue reading Sunday Check-in 4-23-16